Feelings in moment

My world is colorful, you know this, its love and flowers and god and giving and 
feeling and sometimes there is a storm, I feel like I can hold up the whole 
world, I can handle it all, just don't know about this one......

Am I makin a deal with the devil ? Or will it unfold that there is just no way 
to be with someone who says I can not be who I am ? 

I'm coming close to terms with that understanding and from this place things 
seem less emotional... But I'm not there yet......