"Matthew 15- and he said unto them

"Are u all without understanding"

It is not what goes into yourself that makes a man its what comes from yourself... 

And what comes from me is the holy spirit of love, the emotion of desire to be only love, to be in the heart of god in the love I surroundmyself with in the giving"

And. As merton said" I can not know for certain anything,nor do I really know that the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I actually am but I know my desire will never end to be  the light, to do thy good, and to raise all you put forth infront of me'

And yet I seek to wear the robes of the phyrassies, is this the sin in me to have a desire at all, 

Wasn't it Abraham who begged for a few good men to save a city ..

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Oh lord‎, I ask your will as it be and release me from desire*. Show me what comes thru me is six of your angels for me to bring forth as saints, as sinners to be redeemed, , light, as heaven on earth.

Today, I take one step forward and let it be in the journey you send me and not in some shadow self righteous-self deprevation model I create from all I can ever have known. 

Rejoice, and know that you are god, Emmanuel amongst us .

Amen