bible

“And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Now the dwelling of God is 
with men, and he will live with them.  They will be his people and God himself 
will be with them and be their God.”
 Revelation 21:3

prayer

I realize as I wait for the sunrise, the depths of grief, for one minute there 
is it, 
Grief in judging  good and bad as its all we know, the form we are attached to ?   
and there is good and bad, we say- yet good doesn't become evil- a divided house 
is not a house of thieves, , just a house divided

And can the deer teach the turtle its swiftness , they are both loved equally by 
god, who relieves himself 
 how
To us all 
we can not know 
But can a mouth speaking to defile find the words of his heart-

isn't it only oneself who hears the words spoken from within...

And is that love-

Dear lord,
Keep me in grateful
Do not turn ur gaze from me
As evil is strong around me. I am david crying for your eyes to look upon me so 
I may be only in repentance...

Bear your fruits, grateful, thru me,
in  seeking the blessing they offer in the giving,

Thank u for  I also see the roots of the tree which also seek in receiving the 
water and this also is a growing.....

Oh lord let me be the watering and the fruits for ur love  is sweet and 
sorrowful- ...

Amen-

prose

Peace is upon me as I breathe-
The sun fills my vision and poems come singing along side-
Sounds of water fill times space,
And inbetween the vibration is peace !

prose redefined

Heaven is awakening  in the morning
Its fire. Though it doesn't warm, it rises and speaks of itself thru it all.

It will stay orange, unto itself, who color doesn't take on anything. Whose 
light brings into sight, what one might not have seen

Heaven on earth
If only in the morning time
Connecting mornings with another
And for the briefest moment-
We are one with it all.
Timeless days will pass til
We meet again-
Stay with me
be me

Let no tongue  defile
Let no darkness come into
Your light
Breathe me- oh holy spirit
Lov-

prose

Heaven is awakening  in the morning
Its fire. 
Though it doesn't warm,
 it rises 
From within
and speaks of itself 
thru it all.

It will stay orange,as long as it awakening  , in a  color it doesn't know- it 
doesn't take on anything-  Whose light it brings into sight, 
what one might 
not have seen

Heaven on earth
If only in the morning time
Connecting mornings with another
And for the briefest moment-
We are one 
with it all.
And its enough.......
To praise this glory-

Timeless days will 
pass 
Stay with me
be me

Let no tongue  defile
Let no darkness come 
Your light
Breathe me- 
oh holy spirit
Lov-
I am !!!!!!!!!


Its always been in the silence
Kmg

prose

A time of oppression
God will act
What is but any heart suffering if not in christ that we reach a deeper heart
Corozon 
So wise,  know nothing and repentance be  the  only road I know
At a crossroads between
The baptism of repentance,
An emersion in water....

Will I too pass thru the red sea or will I remain forever at waters edge in 
prayer with enemy forcing mee toward.... 

I don't entertain flee but I come to closer terms with it and find a deeper 
forgiveness for my mothers journey as I can not understand her pain or what she 
might have been facing...I just don't know. Maybe for me the lesson already 
happened and I forsake all for the betterment of my children and their souls 
entrusted to me,
Therefore thy will be done and what fear is in that ?

sad noble cause

Sad noble cause


Yours is not the less noble because no drum beats before you when you
go out into your daily battlefields, and no crowds shout about your
coming when you return from your daily victory or defeat.

-- Robert Louis Stevenson

prose

there is a turning point  in the morning, beforw the sunrise an unsuspecting 
guest might not know what was to happen, until there is a spot,  a cloud, a 
reflection of light,grander than anywhere else across the sky...

Grateful ! Today I call it grateful- for this house,  to sleep with the doors 
open and hear the laughter of my kids,
Grateful,  for my health and my comfort and all the wealths am afforded, 
Grateful for whatmy tongue speaks and my heart feels, for the goodness and love 
and joy to sparkle into the kingdom of heaven and the legs and strength and 
blessings to grab onto the stars that lift me out and into the kingdom of 
heaven.


Grateful now for the silence
The peace
The sunrise
grateful to breathe in the moist air of love, to ask for christs presence, show 
me the way.....

-k

prose

I'm moving to the enoullment of this marriage, its dissolution  is so we can 
share something greater in the love of this world and with the children we were 
suppose to make...we don't share love with each other, just schedules and 
errands (and that's one way)

... Can it be that I walk thru the gospels here now as my suffering to 
salvation, that my action be the christ In me having a chance to find itself....

 As I open my heart to each lesson and not be the human reaction that I am...

It looks like laying myself down to the greatest good, it looks like a surrender   
(not a washmat) yet humble, with a grateful heart for the signs and the words to 
think,  a surrender of releasing ....letting my faith (and team) take over and 
trusting a just a bit more....

-k

prose

An extremely beautiful morning,  while the sunrise hids itself, u know its there 
are it speaking to the clouds above it, just the wind blows  by its light, and 
the sea calms, to a flutter....

And I wake into the story of paul, how he was  accused  of one thing, and yet 
spoke the words of christ as his lesson and worried not about a defense. 

Words came to him and he was affirmed in god.....

Today I pray the strength the apolostles...of each of those you  called to be 
besides your only begotten  son, christ jesus,  to hear .... And he said, you 
have heard and still don't believe, while many will have not heard and believe.

Aren't we all called somehow. Holy spirit praise be to god

 Do we clean ourselves enough to open
,  it always me
I am

prose

Any now it is having a special relationship in the horizon, am I not in that 
light

Beams down from heaven, pink light shines ever so on the oceans place- that its 
a vortex and something. Is also rising up.......

And the book of job- 
The lord says he rains on where there is no man,on the just and the unjust, all 
children of god....

prose

Can every moment be tied together by shoestrings and create beauty as they go, 
that we look back on and cherish when it is infinite ?

Prayer-Prose

I believe---


I believe all life, vibrate at a higher pitch, more expansive emotions, in great 
light and connection to nature, beauty,

I believe that true human relationships are a recognizing and share only the 
flow and eb of its greater good, ....

And I don't think my body is meant not to be touched, but that could be washed 
away in temptation  and sacrifice if I take prayer to another level, or if it 
takes me.......

Its. A glorious day to praise god...I start with merton.;
I think that I am following ur will, does that mean that I am actually doing so 
? 

I also believe that the desire to please you, does in fact, please you,and hope 
I have that  desire in all that I am doing. I hope I will never do anything 
apart from that desire....and I know that if I do this you will lead me by the 
right road though I may know nothing about it. 

Amen 

Prayer

The. Present burden of our trial is enough, and earn us an eternal weight of 
glory beyond all comparison, 
We do not fix our gaze on what is seen but on what is unseen, what is seen is 
transitory; what is unseen lasts forever....

This is the word of the lord...

Are you returning?

This recognition and awakening are often called the merging of the luminosity of 
ground and path, or the merging of the luminosity of mother and child. Through 
the power of genuine training in the bardo of meditation this recognition occurs 
as naturally and instinctively as a child jumping onto his mother’s lap: the 
mother and the child know one another, so there is no doubt, no hesitation. This 
recognition occurs instantaneously. A tantra declares: “In one moment, the 
difference is made. In one moment, complete enlightenment is attained.â€
S

prayer

So why does my space have an expiration time ? Why can I not hold on thru the storms at night....

U know, I am such a sinner to think for one second I am so together, and allow the devil to get in and thrust me from my christ heart.

"And the lord said beware, he comes dressed amongst in sheeps clothing, but inside they are raveenous wolfs--, you will know them by their fruits.

And blessed virgin mary who is mother to us all including m I pray to u for ur son in him find a way to shine light where there is only darkness so I can stay in ur peace, "the dust can not praise you "

Amen

poem 2014

Intimate

I think to the most intimate thoughts
to return to the depths of my heart where I  feel the most, it settles time
Moments
Minutes and makes the
Tanameter  tune to the song birds
And the air I breathe in
Is thick
  And still

            And intimate


Kmg 2014

pema choden

Recently, in a friend’s kitchen I saw on the wall a quotation from one of
Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche’s talks, which said: “Hold the sadness and pain of
samsara in your heart and at the same time the power and vision of the Great
Eastern Sun. Then the warrior can make a proper cup of tea.”

I was struck by it because when I read it I realized that I myself have some
kind of preference for stillness. The notion of holding the sadness and pain of
samsara in my heart rang true, but I realized I didn’t do that; at least, I had
a definite preference for the power and vision of the Great Eastern Sun. My
reference point was always to be awake and to live fully, to remember the Great
Eastern Sun—the quality of being continually awake. But what about holding the
sadness and pain of samsara in my heart at the same time?

The quotation really made an impression on me. It was completely true: if you
can live with the sadness of human life (what Rinpoche often called the tender
heart or genuine heart of sadness), if you can be willing to feel fully and
acknowledge continually your own sadness and the sadness of life, but at the
same time not be drowned in it, because you also remember the vision and power
of the Great Eastern Sun, you experience balance and completeness, joining
heaven and earth, joining vision and practicality.

gospel

In the gospel of matthew jesus syas to one of th diciples
Oh look who is here, an israelitte indeed and he says
how do u know me
And jesus said, when u were underr the fig tree I saw u,

Oh I believe u are the christ he says... And jesus contues to ask do u believe
because I said I saw u under the fig tree, that u will see greater things than
these....

What are ur signs today to do gods woirk in the world, share his words so they
burn thru u to the depth u are opening..... Open and be free
.....feel......love.....touch....laugh......held.....receive !

mark nepo

It's as if what is unbreakable - the very pulse of life -
waits for everything else to be torn away,
and then in the bareness that only silence
and suffering and great love can expose,
it dares to speak through us and to us.

It seems to say,
if you want to last,
hold on to nothing.
If you want to know love,
let in everything.
If you want to feel the presence of everything,
stop counting the things that break along the way.

Mark Nepo                   

prose

There's a certain smell,
Sort of an intimate mix
That I want to breathe in more deeply,
I'm not sure
On this beach
Watching sunrise swirl behind clouds testing its existence...

And the waves don't stop
They make me seem small
A drop in time
A chair in the sand, that will carry eternity......

I think to hire a full time assistant and unencomber  the details of my life
only I  think to ask liz to do it cause I'm too emcombered so it doesn't
happen...

And I laugh...at myself....
Cause I am happy !

Blessed are the merciful
For they shall obtain mercy
Dear lord, that all I know if a yearning toqards ur mercy.....

Amen !

prose

There is no bitterness in me, christ washes it away in the sunrise, I'm grateful
to be here, have my kids with me, feel love in   my heart, and even while all
are fighting, and all are creating frustrating situations for themselves
presented for me to solve, I wouldn't trade it for anything.. And I won't solve
them either or be anyone I am not or have never been.

I am me, and I love me, and I am a very lovable me, and I am so grateful to be
busy in the giving in the hospital in sept, to be distracted, not. Idle hands or
idle mind.

Now, here, I enjoy the silence , I allow the fullness of the experience to be
taken to god and I'm learning to trust.

Signs, readings, gifts, messages, baron sermons,  mother theresas book I just
got, sarah youngs devotionals, singing in the chapel, words they call out ,
senses, they blind me, so I can see !!!

foregivness

Really I have nothing to say that doesn't defile me. I don't need to be the
victim - I don't need to speak shock factor- it just is and has been for a
while. Should I humble and say I just couldn't fix it ? God and church call it
an  annulment as we. Aren't Sharing love with each other or the world together ?
We were put together to make the. Children and then what ? Does he raise me to
my highest good ?

Child raising is done at least for him, so what is left ? Emptiness, resentment,
what is there to say, really nothing... What m is doing now, I have no  control
over so why speak about ? Its too much pain for another or its not theirs to
share. Let me share love and be christ when I speak- let me. Find words. Of
foregiveness....

prose

I'm not sure grief-foregiveness- mind wants to label-

Got a feeling that grabbed me with emotion-  in church this morning it was the
blessed mother and jesus and me and matthew all swirlingin each role, and I was
being persecuted and I was the blessed mother and I was matthew being persecuted
for what he does not yet see and the blessed mother was crying for her son and
her son was matthew and I was the mother and there was jesus dying for thsese
sins that are within us,  and it all brings on such sadness and when there is
peace from this sadness its empty and its full and time can pass til sunset and
nothing happened !

Thomas aquinas Book of Job Commentary

prayer......study.....


And it has come to be known in me that the morning stars, the lower part of heaven who are called to praise god join together heaven and earth some way and I am part of that within me with every early morning rise I sing into and it bring a tear of great happiness....

Such solitude, wind, connection, love all joined together in this moment....

So each lesson thomas aquinos writes is quite lengthy but I take one a day....and read it day and night here in mexico as a 'internal study"

Each lesson breaks down every few sentences of the bible book of job  t

.. Below is first lesson, but requires time and silence..and reflection.....
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CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT: GOD RESOLVES THE QUESTION

The First Lesson: What Can Man Understand?

1 Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind and said: 2 Who is that man who envelops his opinions with inept arguments? 3 Gird up your loins like a man. I will question you and you answer me. 4 Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding, 5 who determined its measurements, if you know it? Or who stretched the measuring line upon the earth? 6 On what were the bases of the land sunk or who has laid the cornerstone 7 when each of the morning stars praised me, and all the sons of God shouted for joy? 8 Who shut up the sea with doors when it burst forth as though coming from a womb, 9 when he laid out the clouds as its clothing, and I wrapped it in fog like the swaddling clothes of an infant? 10 I surrounded it with my limits and placed the bar and the doors. 11 And I said: Thus far shall you come and you will not proceed further and here shall your proud waves break. 12 After your rising, did you command the dawn and have you shown the dawn its place?

After the discussion of Job and his friends about divine providence took place, Eliud had assumed to himself the office of determining the answer, contradicting Job in some things and his friends in others. But because human wisdom is not sufficient to understand the truth of divine providence, it was necessary that this dispute should be determined by divine authority. Since Job thought correctly about divine providence, but in his manner of speaking he had gone to excess that he had caused scandal in the hearts of the others when they thought that he did not show due reverence to God, therefore, the Lord, as the determiner of the question, contradicts the friends of Job because they did not think correctly, (42:7) Job himself for expressing himself in an inordinate way, (v. 3ff. and Eliud for an inadequate determination of the question. (v.2) So the text continues, “The Lord answered Job,” because this answer was more on his account, although he had not spoken immediately before. Then he shows the manner of response saying, “out of the whirlwind,” which can certainly be understood according to the literal sense to mean that the voice of God was formed miraculously in the air by some disturbance of the air, as happened on Mt. Sinai in Exodus20:18, or like the voice which spoke to Christ, which some said, “was like a clap of thunder,” as one reads in John 12:29. Or this can be understood metaphorically, so that this answer of the Lord is an interior inspiration divinely given to Job himself, and so the Lord is said to have answered him, “out of the whirlwind,” both because of the disturbance which he still suffered and also because of the darkness which accompanies a whirlwind, since we cannot perceive divine inspiration clearly in this life, but with the darkness of sensible likenesses, as Dionysius says in chapter I of The Heavenly Hierarchy. The Lord indicated this if he had made his voice sensibly heard from a corporeal whirlwind.

Once a dispute has been determined by the opinion of the judge, nothing else remains to be said unless the statement of the determination is rejected. So the Lord first rejects the determination of the question which Eliud had made. He rejects it because Eliud had enveloped the true opinions which he had proposed with many false and frivolous words, and so the text continues, “He said: Who is that man who envelops his opinions with inept arguments?” In his arguments Eliud had accused Job of saying he wanted to dispute with God and said that he was just do vigorously that he seemed to detract from the justice of the divine judgment.

So after the Lord rejected the determination of Eliud, he himself begins to determine the question. First, he gets Job’s attention when he says, “Gird up your loins like a man,” which here is used as a metaphor. For men usually gird up their loins in preparation for a journey or some work.

First, he begins in his determination to accuse Job for seeming to have spoken presumptuously when he provoked God to discussion. Since Job seems to have given God two options when he said, “Call me and I will answer you, and let me speak and you answer me,” (13:22) and as Job had already said enough, the Lord, as though he choosing the second alternative, says, “let me speak and you answer me.” God certainly does not question to learn, but to convince man of his ignorance.

He questions Job about his effects which are accessible to the experience of the human senses. When a man is shown to be ignorant of these, he is much even convinced that he does not have knowledge of the higher realities. Among other sensible effects he begins to ask about the principle parts of the earth. Of these earth is more known to us because it is more immediate to our experience. He begins to ask him about this and says, “Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?” He rightly compares the earth to a foundation because as a foundation is the lowest part of a building, so also the earth is the lowest of bodies and it lies under everything. Since the earth is the principal matter of the human body, matter precedes in time that which is made from it, and even more the plan of the artisan who puts together the matter precedes it. So he clearly says, “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth,” as if to say: You cannot know the plan of the foundation of the earth, because when the earth was laid on its foundation you did not yet exist in the nature of things.

Consider that some of the ancients did not attribute the position of the earth and of the other elements to some ordering plan, but to material necessity, according to which the heavy elements sank under the light ones. So to disprove this opinion, the Lord as a consequence compares the foundation of the earth to the foundation of a building. This foundation is constructed from the plans of the architect. In the same way the foundation of the earth was made according to divine providence, which human intelligence is not capable of understanding fully. He makes this clear when he says, “Tell me, if you have understanding,” as if to say: Therefore, you cannot indicate the reason for these things because your intelligence is not capable of grasping them. Consider that an artisan puts four things in order in the foundation of a building. First, he orders how large the foundation ought to be. In the same way, divine reason has disposed how great a quantity the earth should have, and not larger or smaller. He expresses this saying, “Who determined its measurements,” in all its dimensions. He clearly says, “determined,” for the shape of the earth does not require a certain quantity by necessity, but this quantity was only imposed on the earth from divine reason, which man cannot know. So he says, “If you know it,” since man cannot know or tell this. Second, an artisan puts in order in his plan the determination of the site of the foundation, which he encompasses by the extension of the measuring line, and so he says, “or who stretched the measuring line upon the earth?” This means the plan of divine government which clearly determined the place for the earth in the parts of the universe. Third, after the artisan has determined the size of the foundation and where it is to be located, he determines on what the foundation can be solidly laid. As to this he says, “On what were the bases,” of the land, “sunk,” because it was founded on the center of the world. Fourth, after thinking through these three things, the artisan now begins to lay the stones in the foundation. First, he lays the corner stone to which the different walls are aligned. As to this he says, “or who has laid,” put down, “the cornerstone,” on which the very center of the earth is clearly determined, according to which the different parts of the earth are aligned.

A man usually lays the foundation of a building because he needs a place to live. But to show that God does not lay the foundation of the earth from need, he adds, “when each of the morning stars praised me,” as if he should say: Although heaven whose stars praise me is my dwelling, yet I founded the earth, not because I need the servants who live there, but from my will alone.


He does not say this as though heaven was made before the earth, especially as we read in Genesis, “In the beginning God created heaven and earth,” (1:1) Whereas the text says that the stars which he mentions here were created on the fourth day. (Gen. 1:14) But Genesis says this to show that in the order of nature heaven and the stars are prior to the earth as incorruptible to corruptible and mover to moved. He says the “morning stars,” i.e. ones newly created, as we call morning stars the ones which usually appear at the beginning of the day. The fact that the morning stars are said to praise God can be understood materially in one way, inasmuch as they were the material of divine praise in their brightness and nobility. If not to men, who did not exist yet, they were so at least for the angels who already existed. In another way, according to those who say the heavenly bodies have souls, the stars in the beginning of their institution praised God, not with vocal, but with mental praise. This can even refer to the angels whose ministry is to move the heavenly bodies, as the text continues, “and all the sons of God shouted for joy,” which refers to the angels of the highest hierarchy, whom Dionysius says are located in the entrance court of God. Therefore, as he clearly attributes praise to former stars as to the lower angels, but he attributes shouting for joy to the latter as to the higher angels, because this connotes a kind of excellence in praise.

After the foundation of the earth, he continues then speaking about the waters which are immediately placed over the land. The natural order of the elements requires that water surrounds the earth at every point like air surrounds earth and water at every point. But by divine disposition, it has been effected for the generation of men, animals, and plants, some part of the land remains uncovered by the waters, as God holds back the waters of the sea within their certain limits by his power, and so he says, “Who shut up the sea with doors,” with determined limits. There were some who thought the action of the sun dried up some part of the earth, but the Lord shows that it has been disposed from the beginning that the sea does not cover the land everywhere. He describes the production of the sea using the comparison of the birth of a living thing, a child, because water is especially apt to be changed into living things. This is why the seed of all things is moist. The child first comes forth from the womb of its mother, and he means this when he says, “when it burst forth as though proceeding from the womb.” He uses the word “to break forth” because it is a property of water to move almost continually. He says the sea proceeds, “from the womb,” not because it has had its origin from other corporeal matter, but because it proceeded from the hidden origin of divine providence as from the womb. Second, a newborn child is dressed, and expressing this he says, “when he laid out the clouds as its clothing.” For since the clouds are born from vapors released from water, clouds are much more numerous in maritime places. Third, a child who is born is wrapped in swaddling clothes, and expressing this he says, “and I wrapped it in fog like the swaddling clothes of an infant.” The fog does not mean those water vapors raised up or condensed in the clouds, but darkening of the air on the face of the sea, and perhaps he alludes to what Genesis says, “and darkness covered the face of the abyss.” (Gen. 1:2)

After he posits these things which express the primordial production of the sea, he explains his conclusion as if he said: When the sea was newly made, then, “I surrounded it with my limits.” He posits three things which pertain to the boundary of the sea. One of these is shown when he says, “within my limits,” that is, those placed by me. The second is when he says, “I placed the bar,” and the third when he says, “and doors.” These three things pertain to the rule of divine power, and so he explains them in this way, “and I said: Thus far shall you come,” which pertains to the nature of boundaries, i.e. for a boundary the farthest extent of motion, “and you will proceed no further,” which pertains to the bar by which one’s progress is blocked, “and here shall your proud waves break.” This pertains to the gates which are placed for the purpose of not allowing entrance or exit at random, but according to a determined measure. Thus even the sea does not change its shore at random, but according to the determined measure of the ebb and flow of the waves.

After the land and the water, he proceeds on to the air, which, according to appearances, is joined to heaven. The first disposition common to the whole body which stretches over the waters and the land is the variation of night and day, which happens from the motion of the day which is first of movements. Therefore, he says as a consequence, “After your rising did you command the dawn?” as if to say: Do day and night succeed each other on this earth by your command? For dawn is a kind of boundary between day and night. He clearly says, “After your rising,” as when he spoke about the earth before he had said, “Where were you?” (v.4) For just as the earth is the first material principle of man, so also the highest heaven, which varies night and day by its motion is the first principle of the human body among corporeal causes. Consider that the clarity of the break of day or the dawn is diversified according to the diverse degress of the intensity of signs which accompany the sun, because when there is the sign of a quick rising, in which the sun rises immediately, the dawn lasts only a little while. When the sun shows signs of a delayed rising it endures longer. The measure of place is determined out of which the brightness of the daybreak begins to appear when the sun is rising there, and expressing this he then says, “and have you shown the dawn its place?” as if to say: Have you ordered the places in the heaven from which the dawn will gives its light? He implies the answer, “No”. From all these things you can understand that your reason fall short of the comprehension of divine things, and so it is clear that you are no suited to dispute with God.

prayer 2013 book of knowledge don miguel ruiz

Today help me create the story of my life as beautifully as u create the entire  
universe ...things to wonderful, which I can not know so I speak no more about 
them....

I ask you god to manifest your love through me in every word I express in every 
action I take. Help me to make every activity in my life a ritual for love and 
joy. Let me use love to create the most beautiful story about ur creation...

Today, fill me with so much love, that there is nothing else to give, all 
darkness is gone in your light and with this sunrise I receive the blessing of 
your life, of your love,

Today, lord, let this opening of emotion 'give light, to all those who are in 
the house' no seed I put forth will go to the wasteside, for use me to  water 
what is in the good ground, strengthen these vines and let it bring forth the 
sweetest fruit ....

Let me remain a  child in your rebirth and see only the wonder, only the 
delight....for your yoke is easy and this suffering is light in its awakening 
grace......

Amen

  What, if anything, do I need to complete myself, that I can hold on to, for what does nature hold onto to complete itself. Aren't the seasons already coming as roots burrow into the ground and leaves shed, what can't be held still rejoices in the fruit it has beared ever so sweetly....

That might be the caps of glistening snow amist the mountains, waiting to refreshen streams , that might be the color it has dropped on the ground, preparing the way, announcing the blossoming roses, whose red flows as deep as the blood within my veins and the song in my heart....

Always the sun rises from the east, and always I'm david, crying the timeless story of eternity, in yearning for all that is,
In the wish, is the fulfillment, ,moaning winds take my feet up to soar with the eagles and still I am in the shadow of the tree, I make myself home here, til its root soak of the dream of time past and sorrows weeps into the earth...

Its the gift, I collect and release as daylight fades away and I lay down into the soft embraces under the night sky....

-kmg 2013

Proclaim Jesus

And I wonder something else as I sit in my prayer place coming in and out of 
silence...

I wonder if it feels so good, to hold the hands of christian patients I minister 
to, to be on one knee besides the bed of the patient and the chair of his loved 
one, and pray to jesus, proclaim jesus and the blessed mother mary between them, 
evoke prayer to them saying we believe together, praising god the triad in three 
?

So many places the bible quotes he who proclaims me.....

prose

There is a feeling of fear that sneaks up, when I get emails from someone who wants to create pain and suffering for me...because they are in pain.....cause they feel something is unfair, i shouldn't get more than i deserve, and what is that? what value is put on my womb, on six 6 sections, on the caring for the children, on 20 years of my life.....

And its not 'actually' happening now,there is nothing happening now, but someone elses pain and grief
and I know legalistically I didn't have anything before and my life is perfect this 
moment, so have faith it will all work out.

So what am I worried about. ? Its all he's got on me to turn me away from who I 
am, which is love....

Because I turn from love when I take into my heart another human being out there 
that seems or projects wanting to persecute me, his offspring, for his pain...

And it has just got to be washed away in Christ.....

lord show me the way, 

prayer

Small gratitudes include being grateful for the calling.......

Grateful the holy spirit within me, stirs my whole being to connect with spirit 
of sunrise, for in the emotion and beauty is Christ jesus, rising with the 
kingdom of heaven

H
Don't feel badly that you are not perfect. You are not and will not be until the 
final day. 

Makes me cry... I just have some sadness and grief to get out, the sadness comes 
when I let the words into me, when I let them tear apart what I hold holy, which 
is everything which I have lived til this moment when this is all I got, what is 
infront of me....

And its sad, cause there is someone out there attacking my life, life david and 
goleith, david is soft and singing psalms to god and  goleith is big and mean 
and well versed in fight and attack.

I feel the tears are also the silence and tearing open of a deeper heart to 
listen with and feel the presence of god which is just too much to hold without 
emotion......

Truly a blessin in the tears as they clear me towards  peace

Its a true love I enter, I make room for,  from what was, selfless, and seeking 
only the good in others, self giving, self sacrificing, a dying to self, are 
within the tears, 

Love is giving, and I hear so strongly how god so loved  the world he gave his 
only son, and Jesus loved the world so, he gave his life, and he wants us to 
love as he loved, giving and giving until it hurts....or and until I can
Sa

"Forgive him, he knows not what he does."

 and believe..

let it go disney FROZEN

http://www.youtube.com/embed/L0MK7qz13bU?autoplay=1

Let it go .....