On suffering

On suffering........

As I contemplate  this paper, I seek to create a thesis  statement that somehow 
can include my theories , theological beliefs as well as how they draw from my 
personal sufferings...

And yet my personal sufferings, the grand old childhood tales of woe, misfortune  
and loss, the ones I have that can top any of the best of them, and yet somehow 
they are soft now in forgiveness, and the parts of my being that draw me to the 
offerings I so receive in, share both the tint of forgiveness  and the soft 
glows of grace all around them and therefore loose their shock value and need to 
share them as sufferings ..

And yet to proclaim suffering as grace might seem profound....
Is it only when we look back upon the sufferings we can find their grace ? For I 
won't wish my childhood on anyone, but there it is, in all its forms, and here I 
am, stronger in my faith and love of god for all he has given to me, in my many 
blessings and gifts. 

And what are those blessings and gifts, an open heart, an open heart to children 
, so I create six, an open heart to humanities sufferings ?

If u are able to see someone elses beauty, you have to be able to acknowlege 
your own beauty..
In a similar way if you are going to be available to someones elses suffering, 
you have to be able to acknowledge ur own suffering and be ablle to understand 
the nature of suffering in such a way that u have converted the quality of 
suffering in yourself.

In this sense, I can not know the sufferings of cancer, or preminent illness 
upon one, but can get into the ocean of space around the illness to hop into the 
boat of pain ans suffering,

Per jeff , the russian philosopher quotes;

There is nothing that can be obtained  spiritually in life, without suffering in 
life, 
But at the same time if you are going  to proceed on the journey u must 
sacrifice suffering...

The dual nature is that you have to have suffered, cause suffering is what burns 
through you, deepens the compassion, opens the door, brings you closer to the 
mystery, 
And at the same moment is u hold on to the suffering, wallow in it, cluing to 
it, it stops the journey.

And we don't invite suffering into our lives, but when it comes , you work with 
it.....






And
Pain falls drop by drop upon the heat

On  theoligical study, does a christian contemplate if christ suffered on the 
cross , to gave forsaken his life, drank the cup of his father, to forgive sins 
of the human condition which can be healed in christ and receiving him to fill 
this wounded part of a human being, to heal the heart to open to love ?