If there were no thoughts there would ne

No practice

In a similar  sense ‎if there was no life we wouldn't be living

And here we are, this moment, is the same

Can we not say it includes it all, doesn't it always,

So I wake, and I experience these thoughts and I remember the practice

For can we not say the practice always includes a distraction, disturbance, excitement, lust, suffering, desire, rejection, lack or shame.

Oh to be alive, given this walk in light, given this breathe I take upon me, 

And I choose.... grateful. 

I choose grateful for the experiences I have caught, and some I missed and splattered all over me, 

And some of those splatters have been large and messy and some left a stain or a stentch‎

And I am grateful

And here I sit

‎

I reach deep into my practice 

I'm grateful to enter silence to make way for the light- to know, this day, as all others, are full of light and hope and life and being...

And I'm washed clean of stain, stench, rejection, and loss..... in christ who I truly belong to.

Oh, our god is a jealous god... ‎ or maybe he's just leading me towards a god love with someone who is there ahead of me....

Let it be so....

Amen