. When we are young and in relationship sure the 19 year old freshman wants to be 21 to the college junior but what if ur 21 year old said they were gonna date someone 11. Yet 30-40 is not the same in difference. When as we age do we recover the gap.

Does attractive to ones physical prescense come more into play as we honor our bodies- I cream mine twice a day when 30 years ago I boasted in roasting in iodine and baby oil

And maybe it's all just GOD
Stiring the pot when ur headed down a wrong path
As he grabs hold of my heart and direxts me I can not know
I know that I have a chance to move in and out of a situation without creating pain and more suffering in this world. I know I try to confront with words not to build walls needing to be labeled. For that label I give I will carry along with me as crosses to bear myself one day.

Let me be an instrument of peace
As I navigate this world let me be your servant
And as I know when the time is for me to have a partner
I trust you will bless this time with abundance of love
And in your love we will become the trinity of light
I await for it to be so
In Christ's name
Amen