Faith... is a place of connection, of the heart place. 

The place that has no thinking it's inbread in us, begotton not made, faith.

Faith is not the suffering and the unanswered questioms that ask how and why and turning from  thechurch which is all wrapped up in how we come to faith . Church is how we come to christ or faith is more or spirit or whatever god feels like to one in their hearts.‎

Isn't faith somehow a trinity in the faith that the suffering doesn't have to be to an end but connects us to spirit that is all around us.‎

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To a finish in this world that somehow while it sucks what is, and how can such a tragedy happen, somehow in faith there isn't total loss. The love remains....

We cultivate love when we allow our most powerful selves to be deeply seen and known

And when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection

Love is not something we give or get, it's something that we nurture and grow. A connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them. We can only love others as much as we love ourselves.

Shame, blame, disrespect, and  betrayal damage the roots from which love grows. ‎ Love can only survive these injuries if they are acknowledge, healed and rare.

"The power of vunerability"....

. When we are young and in relationship sure the 19 year old freshman wants to be 21 to the college junior but what if ur 21 year old said they were gonna date someone 11. Yet 30-40 is not the same in difference. When as we age do we recover the gap.

Does attractive to ones physical prescense come more into play as we honor our bodies- I cream mine twice a day when 30 years ago I boasted in roasting in iodine and baby oil

And maybe it's all just GOD
Stiring the pot when ur headed down a wrong path
As he grabs hold of my heart and direxts me I can not know
I know that I have a chance to move in and out of a situation without creating pain and more suffering in this world. I know I try to confront with words not to build walls needing to be labeled. For that label I give I will carry along with me as crosses to bear myself one day.

Let me be an instrument of peace
As I navigate this world let me be your servant
And as I know when the time is for me to have a partner
I trust you will bless this time with abundance of love
And in your love we will become the trinity of light
I await for it to be so
In Christ's name
Amen

Thank u thank u thank u for such wisdom now let me be that wusdom and I read
"What is important is the essense of what u want to manifest rather than the thing itself. For example you want to find a relationship but the ESSENSE of what you want is to love another. What you really want is to furfil your need to love and that will be furfilled. Once u KNOW that and are absolutely certain of it,. The details will get handled.

It should be easy and not a struggle, not a fit, not a match, just a knowing, a being, someone seeing the utter light in the beauty that is being touched and not pushing to contain and capture but to enflame and enlighten

Before something wonderful happens we often experience some kind of fall. In other words, even the struggle is purposefil. This come from the blaballah, ultimately to get to a hugher level in our lives we have to generate the energy to do so. A fall of one kind or another always precedes a spiritual advance because the fall itself helps generate the energy we need for the next leg of our journey.

When through ignorance and powerful karma 

I perpetually wander within the darkness of unknowing,

Won't you accompany me with the light of your wisdom lamp?

Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

It may be that when we no longer know what to do
We have come to our real work
And what when we no longer know which way to go
We have come to our real journey
The mind that is not baffled is not employes
The impeded stream
Is the one that sings- wendell

And as I return to my morning prayer cushion and watch the darkness turn to light, as I am reminded of the emotion of sunrise I see how all around me I am stripping away. All I seek you turn me from, must this be so I ca

n be closer to you, must this be, as I am human and I am alone and as u feel my heart I still on in this world wanting warm arms to hold me and keep me safe at night til I can be your work and love in this world .

Darkness welcomes me as morning vespers begin to form in breathe and praise. a song comes as I part my lips ansd wrap mysaelf in the dark of the morning.

A rose colored sky unfolds and somewhere on the horizon the break of the sun- the majesty of the rising light, birds take notice- the sea proclaims your glory and I am there...

The external world is always in Flux, you are my core and only tears of emotion that I cry to delve even deeper into the riches of ur prescense remind me I am alive in you.

Amen

One thing above all is important: the “return to the Father.” The Son came into the world and died for us, rose and ascended to the Father; sent us His Spirit, that in Him and with Him we might return to the Father. That we might pass clean out of the midst of all that is transitory and inconclusive: return to the Immense, the Primordial, the Source, the Unknown, to Him Who loves and knows, to the Silent, to the Merciful, to the Holy, to Him Who is All.

To seek anything, to be concerned with anything but this is only madness and sickness, for this is the whole meaning and heart of all existence, and in this all the affairs of life, all the needs of the world and of men, take on their right significance: all point to this one great return to the Source.

Thomas Merton

dear lord-

Each day I think I am making decisions on my life when I know the best results are in what I can not know. Send me ur knowledge in the shining love u place in my heart. Stop me from making decisions as they take me away from you. Guide my heart to share only love in you, through u and with u god in the unity with the holy Spirit. I am

Amen

“Noble silence is the strength of the soul. Self-absorbed silence is equal to achieving the unblemished, unattached, absolute state. It is the one-essence, Brahm, of non-dual reality.”

  Wisdom of Aghoreshwar Bhagwan Ram

“Love is patient, love is kind.  It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails.”

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

And yet isn't the fountain that is most full with love to give the very same one that might quench loves thirst...

Kmg2017  

Sent to a mentor as I land in california-
Full of excitement for my morning hikes and my college visiting weekend----

Tonight is the full moon. And an eclipse. And a comet will be seen in the sky, as well. It should be power packed, a time for transformation.

We are  something intense, passionate, with a hint of danger, and the determination that leads us into new awareness...‎ we are part of this night together under the California sky.

Thoughts recognized by mindfulness are like drawings on the surface of water, which disappear as soon as they are drawn.

Silly me to stop to write them when the grestest wisdom is just in the silence

Best year for u---- I couldn't have wish anything more for ur heart soul" a new lense on ur eyes has become unveiled and how you open to what you can not know, will have the same effect on all of u. Heart soul spirit--- fly like the wind when u close your eyes and floats into the ether--- be om -mom

I watch the sunset thru ur eyes and I feel compassion for the world. For life and death and the being of all things- creature- life"

"Thru my sons eyes in thailand"

 At the center of our being is a point of nothingness which is untouched by sin and by illusion, a point of pure truth, a point or spark which belongs entirely to God, which is never at our disposal, from which God disposes of our lives, which is inaccessible to the fantasies of our own mind or the brutalities of our own will. This little point of nothingness and of absolute poverty is the pure glory of God in us. It is so to speak His name written in us, as our poverty, as our indigence, as our dependence, as our son-ship. It is like a pure diamond, blazing with the invisible light of heaven. It is in everybody, and if we could see it we would see these billions of points of light coming together in the face and blaze of a sun that would make all the darkness and cruelty of life vanish completely…. I have no program for this seeing. It is only given. But the gate of heaven is everywhere.

Thomas Merton

Terribly absorbed in a drama that is happening and not happening. Maybe it's just means for me to cocccon into another birth. Into a deeper insight- into a compassion I can not know. This morning in prayer I feel that God as so much faith in me shining here on all his children let me have just a sliver of the light of this faith shining from me always this I pray....

The suffering of change!?

The fleeting pleasures of this world are like the canopies of clouds that appear one moment in the sky and are gone the next. People immerse themselves in these enjoyments, claiming that they are necessary for their livelihood and indispensable for their survival. And yet the life of humankind is no more than a flash of lightning—a swiftly passing interlude, which can in no way be extended beyond its term and is all the while attended by three sufferings, rampant like a gang of thieves: the suffering of change, the suffering of suffering, and all-pervading suffering in the making.

Kangyur Rinpoche

(See _Words of My Perfect Teacher_ by Patrul Rinpoche, page 78:

Ordinary Outer Preliminaries > The Defects of Samasara

4.1 The three fundamental types of suffering

4.1.1 The suffering of change

4.1.2 Suffering upon suffering

4.1.3 The suffering of everything composite 

4.2 The suffering of Birth, Sickness, Old Age and Death

4.2.1 The suffering of birth

4.2.2 The suffering of old age

4.2.3 The suffering of sickness

4.2.4 The suffering of death

4.3 Other Human Sufferings 

4.3.1 The fear of meeting hated enemies

4.3.2 The fear of losing loved ones

4.3.3 The suffering of not getting what one wants

4.3.4 The suffering of encountering what one does not want)

I breathe and the darkness becomes light

Always the daybreak comes

And I am here

One day I won't be here, my spirit will sing in this place that will hold time and a hundred souls seeking or not seeking.....

What are the troubles of today that they should invade my tomorrow.

What of last month's worries, have they lifted up these?

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this morning, is just that. God comes first, and always, and everything else will be.......

The conventional explanation, that God sends us the burden because He knows that we are strong enough to handle it, has it all wrong. Fate, not God, sends us the problem. When we try to deal with it, we find out that we are not strong. We are weak; we get tired, we get angry, overwhelmed. We begin to wonder how we will ever make it through all the years. But when we reach the limits of our own strength and courage, something unexpected happens. We find reinforcement coming from a source outside of ourselves. And in the knowledge that we are not alone, that God is on our side, we manage to go on. 

Rabbi Kushner