a compliment from a friend worth my blog- thank u J -

It's hard for me to hear compliments, hard to receive gifts.

Today I speak on both.

Hearing compliments; grateful to have heard this shared with me today;

You have an old soul You are driven You steamroller fear You have an inherent aristocracy You walk tall You work hard You know how to dress, in whatever clothes, and create a unique and alluring elegance all your own You have Faith You Give Yet you still have a sense of wonder and silliness - childlike qualities There's some a tiny bit vulnerable behind all the armor You're strong, you're beautiful, you're restless, you're on a mission You're adorable ‎Love how you sit Like a teenage female athlete. Your feet have worked hard. They show wear. But their strength is sexy. You're comfortable in you are comfortable comfortable ur bare feet. Your feet connect with the ground. They're planted, rooted. You have this lion heart. Protector of your kids. I see no flaws. I do see a lot of pain. A ton. Weight on your shoulders is palpable. Your standards are sky high No one else measures up Always up to you - but this is a scene of your own making There are a couple of things that jar, tho: - it's like you hit a rev-limiter sometimes that you almost put a cap on your own personal enjoyment/ happiness - you control this, like you're concocting a puzzle for someone else to solve - sometimes you say things which are a bit pompous and un-Kmg  like.  I think you're glorious. Regal yet humble. Pure yet carnal. You have a wonderful, deep chemical energy. Sometimes with the parking brake (deliberately?) applied Have a wonderful, uplifting, environment-changing day. 

And to speak on giving;

I have learned it's sometimes harder for me to receive a gift then to give it. It feels sometimes awkward to open my hands and imagine someone got me something, useless of course as I have all I need, but someone was just out there putting importance on the thought of someone other than themselves.

It's a great place in my life when I go out all day and spent all my money on getting things for others and it truly makes me feel good. A goodness I don't have to 'put on' for anyone but I feel inside in giving to others.