Reflection -Grief

A reflection...


I am a child in awe of the beauty in every morning. I am  filled with wonder, 
bewildered, as I write words that come thru me and read them back again , as 
mine....

My words are without knowledge...
I can not have understanding of the wonders of earth the wonders of god..., I 
know only where my  heart
Takes me and I will let it lead me to the greenest grass,,  the lightest 
existance, for I need for nothing I have to fight for or against....
What I have is mine, what has been taken from me is mine too.

"Have the gates of death been revealed  to u, have u comprehended the breathe of 
the earth...I know this not.
, 
Where is the way to the dwelling of life, darkness, where is its place,
I do not know.not only because the number of my days is not  great but it is not 
given to me to know this. It is not in my purlieu......has the rain a father, 
who has begotten the drops of dew, the frost of heaven, who gives it birth...can 
u lift up ur voice to the clouds that an abundance of water may come, who has 
put wisdom in the mind or who has given understanding to the heart...

These are big questions that can not scale the next to the why's of pain and 
suffering...., 
so little am I to consider to know , I have more to still to come to me....and I 
will not make them my own..I will find what I can hold onto that will make be 
stronger, more full then at loss..

..It is for my conscience to guide my hand, my deed to create myself for there 
is too much I am not given to know....

I receive the gift of creation. I create with a paintbrush of abundance with the 
rainbow colors of love....

Included in that love, is every part of me here or above...in shadow and in 
heart


Karen gruber 2012