Karen 2012

The morning rise
Southern sky, rise high
And beam right through
My closed eye

Feet touching  the ground
Listen for the call
The birds, squirrels drop their
Nuts, they are so busy around..

I sit to awaken
To open my eyes
To the life that I live
Not to be controlled by my mind

I welcome the universe
How I see it supporting me
when I sit I know
I can see the workings begin
 how it can be...

And somewhere beyond
Knowing 
There is a play for control
My ipod suddenly blars out
Singing..  Rockstar by  nickelback
Surely not the 'om ' is was set to vibrate
""""
I want a brand new car and an episode on cribs
And a bathtub I can play baseball in..."""""

And I laugh

move to silence

I want to stand
I want to stretch
I want to move to the
Music of the wind

I feel my heart
Its arising,
Its tightening me behind my belly as it calls

Emotion rises, and I'm alive
And prayers  release, without thought from my outbreathe
I'm overtaken
By love
God
Living through me

I tip toe out of the knowing
The material of life here 
Exactly placed to support 
Where I am now

Stillness has a lesson

I wait to feel strong enough
To do this work with matthew
Yet its weakness that I need
Seems harder to pick up

Thank u for this day
Thank you for this life
Thank you that I may be human now and have this emotion
So I can be closer to you

Dear god keep me swimming in this pond, let me invite all who are in my life, 
who do your work,  with me and bless us, to lay hands and heal
In the name of your son., Jesus,
Ask and it shall be given
I listen
I pray
Have mercey on me

Amen