Friday, December 14, 2018

Poem

True person manifest throughout the ten quarters of the world


By Eihei Dogen

(1200 - 1253)


English version by Steven Heine


 


The true person is

Not anyone in particular;

But, like the deep blue color

Of the limitless sky,

It is everyone, everywhere in the world.

Saturday, November 17, 2018



Contemplate how others have inflicted harm upon you in the past,
How they accused you, struck you and beat you. 
How you were put to shame and deeply hurt. 
Recollect it thoroughly in your mind and allow anger to arise. 

The moment it arises, look directly into its essence, observe that which is angry. 
Where did it come from first? Where is it now? Where will it go at last?
See whether or not there’s a shape or a color, and so on. 

Observed, it is primordially empty; there is nothing there to grasp. 

Without abandoning anger, it is mirror-like wisdom. 

When you realize in this way, the disturbing emotions are wisdoms. 

Because you have realized that the five poisons are empty,
Without following thoughts, in the moment of their arising,
Relax naturally and rest in the state of mind itself. 
Thoughts will vanish spontaneously. 

This is both the demonstration and method of training. 



Shabkar Tsokdrug Rangdröl
The Sufi Pathway is the Transformation of the Self from the Lower Self to the Higher Self.   Sufism is a Mystic Tradition where one is The Lover of the Beloved — FINDING GOD ….

p. 19-23 Essential Sufism, part of the introduction by Robert Frager; HarperSanFrancisco, 1997

Transforming the Self

Robert Frager

The goal of all mysticism is to cleanse the heart, to educate, or transform, the self, and to find God. The lowest level of the self is dominated by pride, egotism, and totally self-centered greed and lust. This level is the part within each person that leads away from Truth. The highest level is the pure self, and at this level there is no duality, no separation from God.
The self is actually a living process rather than a static structure in the psyche. The self is not a thing. The Arabic term is related to words for "breath," "soul," "essence," "self," and "nature." It refers to a process that comes about from the interaction of body and soul. When the soul becomes embodied, it forgets its original nature and becomes enmeshed in material creation. This creates the self.
The lowest level of the self, the ego or lower personality, is made up of impulses, or drives, to satisfy desires. These drives dominate reason or judgment and are defined as the forces in one's nature that must be brought under control. The self is a product of the self-centered consciousness - the ego, the "I." The self must be transformed - this is the ideal. The self is like a wild horse; it is powerful and virtually uncontrollable. As the self becomes trained, or transformed, it becomes capable of serving the individual. Sheikh Muzaffer has written,
The self is not bad in itself. Never blame your self. Part of the work of Sufism is to change the state of your self. The lowest state is that of being completely dominated by your wants and desires. The next state is to struggle with yourself, to seek to act according to reason and higher ideals and to criticize yourself when you fail. A much higher state is to be satisfied with whatever God provides for you, whether it means comfort or discomfort, fulfillment of physical needs or not.
According to many Sufi teachers, there are seven levels of the self. They are seven levels of development, ranging from absolutely self-centered and egotistical to purely spiritual.

The Commanding Self

The first level has also been described as the domineering self or the self that incites to evil. The commanding self seeks to dominate and to control each individual. At this level there is unbridled selfishness and no sense of morality or compassion.
Descriptions of this level are similar to descriptions of the id in psychoanalytic theory; it is closely linked to lust and aggression. These have been called the swine and the dogs of the self - the sensual traits are like swine, the ferocious ones like fierce dogs or wolves. Wrath, greed, sensual appetites, passion, and envy are examples of traits at this level of the self. This is the realm of physical and egoistic desires.
At this level people are like addicts who are in denial. Their lives are dominated by uncontrollable addictions to negative traits and habits, yet they refuse to believe they have a problem. They have no hope of change at this level, because they do not acknowledge any need to change.

The Regretful Self

People who have not developed beyond the first level are unaware and unconscious. As the light of faith grows, insight dawns, perhaps for the first time. The negative effects of a habitually self-centered approach to the world become apparent to the regretful self.
At this level, wants and desires still dominate, but now the person repents from time to time and tries to follow higher impulses. As Sheikh Muzaffer points out,
There is a battle between the self, the lower self, and the soul. This battle will continue through life. The question is, Who will educate whom? Who will become the master of whom? If the soul becomes the master, then you will be a believer, one who embraces Truth. If the lower self becomes master of the soul, you will be one who denies Truth.
At this second level, people do not yet have the ability to change their way of life in a significant way. However, as they see their faults more clearly, their regret and desire for change grow. At this level, people are like addicts who are beginning to understand the pain they have caused themselves and others. The addiction is still far too strong to change. That requires far stronger medicine.

The Inspired Self ) At the next level, the seeker begins to take genuine pleasure in prayer, meditation, and other spiritual activities. Only now does the individual taste the joys of spiritual experience. Now the seeker is truly motivated by ideals such as compassion, service, and moral values. This is the beginning of the real practice of Sufism. Before this stage, the best anyone can accomplish is superficial outer understanding and mechanical outer worship.

Though one is not free from desires and ego, this new level of motivation and spiritual experience significantly reduces the power of these forces for the first time. What is essential here is to live in terms of higher values. Unless these new motivations become part of a way of life, they will wither and die away. Behaviors common to the inspired self include gentleness, compassion, creative acts, and moral action. Overall, a person who is at the stage of the inspired self seems to be emotionally mature, respectable, and respected. (about dangers at this stage

The Contented Self

The seeker is now at peace. The struggles of the earlier stages are basically over. The old desires and attachments are no longer binding. The ego-self begins to let go, allowing the individual to come more closely in contact with the Divine.
This level of self predisposes one to be liberal, grateful, trusting, and adoring. If one accepts difficulties with the same overall sense of security with which one accepts benefits, it may be said that one has attained the level of the contented self. Developmentally, this level marks a period of transition. The self can now begin to "disintegrate" and let go of all previous concern with self-boundaries and then begin to "reintegrate" as an aspect of the universal self.

The Pleased Self

At this stage the individual is not only content with his or her lot, but pleased with even the difficulties and trials of life, realizing that these difficulties come from God. The state of the pleased self is very different from the way we usually experience the world, focused on seeking pleasure and avoiding pain. A Sufi story illustrates this:
Sultan Mahmud of Ghazna once shared a cucumber with Ayaz, his most loyal and beloved companion. Ayaz happily ate his half of the cucumber, but when the sultan bit into his half, it was so bitter he immediately spit it out.
"How could you manage to eat something so bitter? the sultan exclaimed, "it tasted like chalk or like bitter poison!"
"My beloved sultan," answered Ayaz, "I have enjoyed so many favors and bounties from your hand that whatever you give me tastes sweet."
When a person's love and gratitude to God reach this level, he or she has reached the stage of the pleased self.

The Self Pleasing to God

Those who have reached the next stage realize that all power to act comes from God, that they can do nothing by themselves. They no longer fear anything or ask for anything.
The Sufi sage Ibn 'Arabi described this level as the inner marriage or self and soul. The self pleasing to God has achieved genuine inner unity and wholeness. At earlier stages, people struggle with the world because they experience multiplicity. A broken mirror creates a thousand different reflections of a single image. If the mirror could be made whole again, it would then reflect the single, unified image. By healing the multiplicity within, the Sufi experiences the world as whole and unified.

The Pure Self

Those few who attain the final level have transcended the self entirely. There is no ego or separate self left, only union with God. At this stage, the individual has truly realized the truth, "There is no god but God." The Sufi now knows that there is nothing but God, that only the Divine exists, and that any sense of individuality or separateness is an illusion.

Friday, November 16, 2018


The message of hope the contemplative offers you, then, brother, is not that you need to find your way through the jungle of language and problems that today surround God: but whether you understand or not, God loves you, is present in you, lives in you, dwells in you, calls you, saves you, and offers you an understanding and light which are like nothing you ever found in books or heard in sermons. The contemplative has nothing to tell you except to reassure you and say that if you dare to penetrate your own silence and risk the sharing of that solitude with the lonely other who seeks God through you, then you will truly recover the light and the capacity to understand what is beyond words and beyond explanations because it is too close to be explained: it is the intimate union in the depths of your own heart, of God’s spirit and your own secret inmost self, so that you and He are in all truth One Spirit .

Merton 
So beautifully done nature sending faith thru visions of rainbows where dreams or prayers were first created in a childhood fantasy of what life is always becoming ...as woman as prayer and blessed child of god.  It is already here and there it is .....peace.   Calm.  And rainbows calling us to grateful and to the heart
Kmg

Thursday, November 15, 2018

 Spirituality is simply a means of arousing one’s spirit, of developing a kind of spiritedness. Through that you begin to have greater contact with reality. You’re not afraid of discovering what reality is all about, and you are willing to explore your individual energy. You actually choose to work with the essence of your existence, which could be called genuineness. An interest in spirituality doesn’t mean that you lack something, or that you have developed a black hole in your existence which you are trying to compensate for or cover over with some sort of religious patchwork. It simply means that you are capable of dealing with reality. 



Trungpa Rinpoche 

Wednesday, November 14, 2018


There are three treasures which I prize above all things. 

The first is love,
The second is moderation,
The third is humility.

He who has love can be truly brave;
He who has moderation can have in abundance; 
He who has humility can truly have power. 

But now men want bravery, and not love;
They want abundance, and not moderation;
They want power, and not humility. 
         This is death. 



Tao Te Ching LXVII 




Saturday, November 3, 2018

The idea of a tailgate seems active and lively yet the silence besides this river roars in colors of wall. The water has no mind to receive the reflections which make me see double beauty as light shimmers along the race"s river path. I slid against a brick wall and lay out my dartmouth scarf to squat on- happy to be full in nature and not little words--- 
The heart pumps no blood to my memory
Of recollections that don’t belong
The forms become formless and everything is god
My eyes see only the mirror of myself
And have no vision of the unreal or dark nor can I receive deceit or lies I brush them away and live in my world with a cocoon sheid where I emerge in the giving

Amen

Kmg

Friday, November 2, 2018


Return within,
to the place where there is nothing,
and take care that nothing comes in.
Penetrate to the depths of yourself,
to the place where thought no longer exists,
and take care that no thought arises there!
There where nothing exists,
Fullness!
There where nothing is seen,
the Vision of Being!
There where nothing appears any longer,
the sudden appearing of the Self!
Kmg

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

Prayer today is releasing any story til there is none. Sometimes that's what my mornings just are allowing go's to unfold his beautifl revelations into an emopty open heart not guarded by stories or tale... I cleanse the world and baptise in christs light- amen

Sunday, October 7, 2018

Santa fe is beautiful- the pace slows and it becomes me, I'm not sure when I stepped into her shoes but I wear them well....sunrise is long and blinding amd there is no rush to leave it- peace blows in from the window and lands on my tongue as trust- I swallow deep and am full of his life meal..today I begin only in the giving--- -kmg

Thursday, September 27, 2018




In
my soul
there is a temple, a shrine, a mosque, a church
where I kneel.
Prayer should bring us to an altar where no walls or names exist.
Is there not a region of love where the sovereignty is
illumined nothing,
where ecstasy gets poured into itself
and becomes
lost,
where the wing is fully alive
but has no mind or body?
In
my soul
there is a temple, a shrine, a mosque,
a church
that dissolve, that
dissolve in
God.



—Rabia

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

What a wonderful time, to be humbled in the prescense of ur heart which stands before god healing in your coccoon of life, which is life, which is the perfect recipe to be living, it's not scurring around that an audience is desired, it's here in the silence when we realize out body are..."look at the bird of the air.... amen

Saturday, September 22, 2018

The candle flickers and I breathe deep. I breathe into the knowing of who I am today which is only how much of chrust I am open to in my heart- everything else lessens that, thought, can't be a higher gift for its the mear humble knowings of words I can collect and arrange or the thoughts of self which are protected and therefore jailed but the heart of christ is free, it's love and it connects with all love, and the birds that are chirping and the wind that passes by cheek....

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

I learned that discipline is not negotiable, grace is a consequence of humility, devotion to something greater than oneself is salvation, and impossible beauty exists.*


Toni Bentley

Sunday, September 16, 2018

A special weekend to be in community with CAL- thru son, football,friends and imprint of a joy which has been a start and is now a beginning.

I pray blessings to my hard working son.

Amen
We must work with our fears, frustrations, disappointments, and irritations, the painful aspects of life. People complain that Buddhism is an extremely gloomy religion because it emphasizes suffering and misery. Usually religions speak of beauty, song, ecstasy, bliss. But according to Buddha, we must begin by seeing the experience of life as it is. We must see the truth of suffering, the reality of dissatisfaction. We cannot ignore it and attempt to examine only the glorious, pleasurable aspects of life. If one searches for a promised land, a Treasure Island, then the search only leads to more pain. So all sects and schools of Buddhism agree that we must begin by facing the reality of our living situations. We cannot begin by daydreaming.


Trungpa Rinpoche

Saturday, September 8, 2018

In rolette bible this morning I come again upon a passage from mark- "he who not be like little children can not enter the kingdom of heaven " because the children come to the kingdom with only love- with only trust and not the story of tommorow, let's ponder this when we think of our worries, our darkness, our depressions, our self centered weaknesses and let's remember every morning to give them to crist and ask, beg, humble to the empty heart opened just to receive more of christ within, more of the light free clear and ougiving--- amen

Monday, September 3, 2018

And I cut short by adding words
By attaching the words, few that I know
And lesser I know how to pronounce, I cut short the emotion that will take me to tears
That will emerge not a wave but a tsumani of
Love eminating from my gut 
Into a fireball of gratefulness I drop to a humble knowing

For all of it
 this moment to feel so deeply
To love so fully, as I receive the gift of my fullness

love for my son 
First day of college where he himself is on the path of greatness
Oh I pray dear lord to have ur angels continue to guide him in a light so bright that the sufferings we all face and  obstacles of life's darknesses can be trampled by the strength of the goodness today

As the sun rises this morning on dartmouth green, I see the west houses, rows of traditional new hamshite clapboard white with green shutters, and the princes of the future ‎are kept safe to sleep and athlete and competencomplete  and grow. Grow to love life, and the joy of living...

Grateful

Kmg 2018

Tuesday, August 28, 2018

I forgive the darkness that comes into thought and spit on me with-- I am grateful for the shield of love god gives me in prayer and forgetfulness. Peace me in your day- amen
I can bring to it the joy I have in the giving- the love I have been blessed with to offer and the life I breathe today--- all that gift--- and surely darkness and evel evil find me as I shine gods light in the world, but I wil try not to stand out and to keep my heart open and my eyes forward... and I wil pray- for it is all greater than me,,, and I am grateful""amen

Thursday, August 23, 2018

Enter by the narrow gate. The path that shines on us all is the narrow gate. For in the cross there is nothing but love so I point in that direction- and I follow the narrow path to love and every moment is a chance to be reborn in that love so hamilton jack, my forth son- let's start afresh with all we already hhave experienced and now this, something new

Monday, August 20, 2018

So Pilate, wishing to satisfy the crowd, released Barabbas for them; and after flogging Jesus, he handed him over to be crucified. Mark 15:15 



Gods of Pilate, 
you are loud and lazy, 
following the fashions of the day 
making lies out of love 
and making mockeries of meaning. 
And − so often − we follow you. 
May we instead, follow that small whisper, 
even when we barely hear it, 
even when we barely believe it, 
even when it hurts. 
Because this is what love is. 
This is what love is.

 Amen.


Tuesday, August 14, 2018

Today I sing to catholic clients mother divine and I write--
John 14:6‎

Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
Yes. It reminds me of the story of Moses on st sinai when Moses asked to see god and god said you can not see me and survive but I AM‎
Will run past u and u can see the cloud of my passing
And that passing caused the bush to light on fire and not consume the bush while it burned....

Christ is gods gift of is to receive god thru his only begotten son so that we sinners may see and believe. The ultimate sign of salvation which I receive every day and pray grace for the calling
And what flows thru my fingers I do not know nor guide it as I wish to remain guided to thy will which is greater than my smallness can even know:)  

So yes, if mother divine is the song bringing me to spirit today, then it is.‎


And it's a slow chant to the mother divine, god, christ, spirit, it's a calling, an opening, a listening, it's a blessing to be here, thirsty for life, love, all that is and can be, a surrender, release, a moment in all moments more.... the birds praise, the waves calm and I rejoice---
And it's a slow chant to the mother divine, god, christ, spirit, it's a calling, an opening, a listening, it's a blessing to be here, thirsty for life, love, all that is and can be, a surrender, release, a moment in all moments more.... the birds praise, the waves calm and I rejoice---
It's the great banquet of life, full I enter with my burning lamp, and from the byways I also come without my wedding garmet- and as a sinner I wash myself in the blood of christ and I eat the body of my lords food as the food of salvation and seaside I wait...with open hands and open heart- come spirit- come---

Sunday, August 12, 2018

4th son heading to boarding school----wrote this sone----said this is song leaving for school

"" I never can forget the day When my dear Mother did sweetly say You are leavin', my darling boy You always have been your mother's joy Now as you leave in this world to roam You may not be able to get back home But remember Jesus, who lives on high And is watchin' over you with a mighty eye The world is so full of old sin and woe And many sorrows everywhere you go But remember Jesus, who's everywhere You get in trouble now, he'll meet you there If you'll bow down before his face And trust in him for his saving grace, now And you have a burden, he'll make them light And he sure will guide you all in the right Now when I think of my Mother dear How often she did, and try to cheer My wandering mind, whilst going astray By saying, "Son, accept the way."
The narrow gate calls me in every sunrise and I yearn to respond in kind. I release wanting the thirst for this everlasting calling into this day and arrive at sunrise open hands open palms grateful for this manna.

"I have food to eat you do not know" *as the fruits of the path down the narrow gate are sweet and many


Matthew Chapter 7 is often thought to be in reference to those that will enter into the kingdom versus those that will not. If one reads in advance to verse 13 they will discover that the opening line is “judge not, that ye be not judged” and what follows is a warning: “For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again”.
Then in verses 7-11
“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you…if ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?” In verse 12 we are given insight: “Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets. Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.”
This whole narrative is in regard to our relationship with one another. “Judge not”, “remove the plank out of your own eye”, “whatsoever ye would that men should do to you”, this is the law of the Prophets. In Matthew 22 Jesus also spoke of the law of the Prophets: “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind… love your neighbor as yourself.”
Therefore in keeping with the narrative the wide gate that leads to destruction would be those works Paul speaks of that will not stand the test of fire and the narrow gate would be those works that stand the test of fire as they are conceived by God’s love.
1 Corinthians 3:8-…every man shall receive his own reward according to his own labour…Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is. If any man's work abide which he hath built thereupon, he shall receive a reward. If any man's work shall be burned, he shall suffer loss:but he himself shall be saved; yet so as by fire.
The word in Matthew 7 translated as “narrow” is done so only in this verse. The Greek word being translated “thlibĹŤ” generally is translated as trouble or afflict. Grace, Christ’s work on the cross (His trouble or affliction) is the narrow gate and the greatest love. John 15:13 “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.”
John 10:9 "I am the door (gate): by me if any man enter in, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture."
Matthew 16:24 "Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me"
Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it. (Matthew 7:13-14, NIV)
For any individual to enter the kingdom of God, it is necessary to use a gate. Why is it true that so few find this gate?

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

A peaceful passing of ‎a summers day where time floats by marked by breezes and buzzes and chirps and ripples which are always there marking all moments as the same.

Silenxe bakes the sun behind my lids and blinds me in light to see anything more. Of but I feel it all stirring.within this peacefull passing of a summers day....

Monday, August 6, 2018

Quiet fills the room as I return to the window seat successfully preparing for a luncheon with 5 kids. And there is no where to go because I am already here....‎

Sunday, August 5, 2018

GGive me just this day
My daily bread
This day as the sun baptised my vision
To only light to only praise
Here in peace I am not worthy to come under your roof but I receive how you draw me and I hunger and thirst for the gifts to be blessedly bestowed onto me this day so I can share that fullness knowing no moment will be ever better than the silence of this moments prescense so ill await for the next sunrise and this moment becomes enough

Amen

Saturday, August 4, 2018

Sitting beachside, spacious breezes, summer sounds of social lounge chairs, and splashing pool receiving jumpers- swimmers- and I sun- with tall dunes swinging across a forever glaze at the calmest of oceans.... after the thrashing of a storm, stillness... and. I sing praise---

Sunday, July 29, 2018

And when the blessings of the morning fall into the day- I say
I'm makin bacon for christ within my son
I'm setting up the blow up bed for christ within the friends friend coming to stay
I'm kissing sleeping children as if annointing their foreheads with oil from my morning refueling
All of it- unchangingai stable- unconditional
And the devil shows his face in so many ways we think it's some character lurking in the dark with horns yet it's the spirit of darkness that I feel so strongly when im so swimming in the pool of christs blood, it shows itself in complain as if I am someone who can be wronged.... yet in christs love I am a reflection of the sin within in. , and the devil comes in planning... not don't sit with god I have things for u to think and future plans for u to make, yet it's the struggle between the plans and thy wil that doesn't allow a tommorow more brighter and more divine then any knowledge I can conguer myself in the timeless power struggle thinking I know better. BOOK OF JOB cpt 38-40 is this message it is the flesh to eat, "girl up ur loins" god says to job, you know nothing that I know". Grace be with us all this sunday morning- amen-kmg

Saturday, July 28, 2018

" im so grateful that spirit flows through any dialogue and spacens the words to brush stroke more colorful the living moment.... and like the wind blowing the bamboo leaves infront my eyes in the window. Still the tree stands strong.

The water still and I think of the old zen tale "does the stillness receive the reflection and know the beauty it reflects."

Amen

Friday, July 27, 2018

I balanced a sort of financial bottoI balanced a sort of financial bottom hit in 2014 which in the height of my hospital hours and deep deep in my heart of compasion- that sitting here in 2018 I just am grateful and have the most amazing faith being a child of god, so what can I seek- but to connect in my heart - things might go up and down in the years of my life to come but I will always be my heart-kmg
m hit in 2014 which in the height of my hospital hours and deep deep in my heart of compasion- that sitting here in 2018 I just am grateful and have the most amazing faith being a child of god, so what can I seek- but to connect in my heart - things might go up and down in the years of my life to come but I will always be my heart-kmg
Emptiness is far from being nihilistic. In the end, it doesn’t reject anything; it simply helps us to lose our tendency to reify things or take things too personally

Wednesday, July 25, 2018


Life starts as a gift from the universe that comes with pain and difficulties. It doesn’t spare anyone, no matter how lucky, including the rich and powerful ones. Our response to suffering is individual. Some learn lessons from it. Others wallow in it, perpetuating their addiction to misery. Our conceptual apparatus is always trying to figure out the primary factor for all our woes. It doesn’t always perform good work in assessing the situation. It might see that uninvited mishaps and unfavorable circumstances are the factors that cause our unhappiness. With this notion, we’re often trying to be in control of our own life and the greater world, which is an impossible task, and we suffer endlessly from hope and fear, until some big awakening strikes us from within.

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

And there is that beautiful orange moment when my heart glows
A cloud passes and I speak out words
To stop the words as they come as my clouds and block the moments the tiniest perfect time moments of no time whose words mean nothing-

Here the clenched glory sitting in the
praise singing holy holy holy....

Amen

Saturday, July 21, 2018

It's such a strong pull, it's an efortfull practice in prayer today to wash away the devil of self story while I'm in a gracious outpouring of love, gods grace within seems to need to have no self to be in. anything but compassion and all around me is to express that unconditional love and my lips quivers when I think I'm not worthy but weighing in the balance is now.... this moment and it's all love and beauty and may I walk all the days of my life, right here, right now, and prayer depth to know no different and pray, dear lord, no story can touch me outside thy will., and let thy will be done.... amen 

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

The sun shines upon me 
And I count
The church bells
One two three
Chiming eight times gives chance
For the words to vibrate within me
Lord have mercy
Christ have mercy
Bless me in grace
Bless all those who you bring to me
Thru you thru me 
Let this be grace
As I bow my head and
Out stretch my arms
I turn my palms up to you
Everlasting waters I yearn to qurench
This thirst and I yearn also for the never
Ending desire for you always
In me above this world and within it
Amen

Kmg 2018

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Stillness
Watches the shadows‎
Light creates in the night room‎
My flat feet slip up towards my body
Makes  the V of my legs reflect and I am ever so still..... air does not move 
And it's naked skin moisture sweats over

It doesn't matter if I was in a monastary,. A mansion or a molehut, I am always the same.

And grateful in grace
Ever so grateful

Amen

-k‎

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Friday, July 13, 2018

Stafford
(1914 - 1993)

  
Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?

Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?

When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life --

What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, wh
Kmg
My fourth son's 17th birthday

"I am out finding a cake and balloons and I know ur sleeping this day- and I love u thru it all. You don't have to be or do anything for me to love u. You are in and from my veins and it will always be so... Happy 17th birthday..... (dotdotdot).mom
Things that are close seem far
As I navigate the roads of travel with 5 children.
I watch as I catch myself feeling anger for a wrong, someone who refuses a simple request. I see that emotion fleeting thru quickly as I can be angry in the moment at the action, but quickly seperate it as a feeling and hug and kiss that same son in love as he leaves-

I threaten to use his cc allowance to ship the bag he wouldn't take home, as he leaves for home and wants to go bag less and make me drag it, his things, thru Europe. I spout out working together, and my mistake to pack so much but help me fix my wrong. I appeal to the practical side of he has one flight nice to jfk and I'm headed thru italy on a car road trip and one more bag in tow this week is a Hugh help for him to take it to jfk. NO. I get. Leave it ( hence if I do I will have to replace all his clothing in sept for school so it's a win win threat to him)

Ahhh... why I am so in the story when it doesn't matter. I will love him thru it all....
Because it's all unconditional when it's real and flows thru my veins as me and still and always it's a gift.  

And a practice
And a guide...
And I'm proud of myself to not follow the fleeting moment into a dark angry place and yet there is nothing in me to weigh me any thing I deserve or need someone to be. And emotion spurs when I want to say "I am not worthy that you come under my roof, just say the word and you are healed" 

So the word is christ- and in the human world nothing is gonna come under ur roof to make it "as u see perfect to be" but say the world of christ no roof can cover or contain the larger heart of christ to live in.

Thursday, July 12, 2018


Forgiveness of ourselves, then, implies an acceptance of our true value. The loss of a false self-image, if it is an image of superiority, or the need to hide our brokenness can bring anguish and inner pain. We can only accept this pain if we discover our true self beneath all the masks and realize that if we are broken, we are also more beautiful than we ever dared to suspect.

Jean Vanier

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

It seems so simple to think of what one is wanting is from lack of them having

All of what we are is already within us, can someone hand us beauty, love, health, isn't it a cultivation of the gift we are given and the faith that if we become them they will fill us more than anything that we can receive from the outside.

Whta we receive can be taken away so the gifts are received with attachment and fear.

Can't we exchange this fear into the understanding that dealth is part of our natural end and we don't live with that daily fear of ultimately our human life being taken away.

Can we not offer what we so need and find a new path building from within by what we give out.

I imagine the lack of what one seeks becomes full in the giving that lack simple is no more...

Amen
Kmg 2018

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Without music the bird sing a constant song that announces the daybreak. ‎On cue together one sound amongst many

Kmg

Monday, July 9, 2018

I am a child of god with a  heart blessed with the grace to be ever thirsty for‎ his love , it makes me love, makes me pour out my offering as the only way, for in the silence of the utter joy of giving is god. And I rest and time is infinite for  the silence is a living in the soul and the heart beat is a faith of forevers love...

There is no story in this outpouring, there are eyes that see with the greatest of companion and I pray for a deeper reach, a energy connection, a new language that speaks my silence in the dark-

Amen