Sitting quietly in my room, in a chair by the window I see a golden ball of energy, this energy is shining so bright and it spills out all the wonderfulness of who I amm....but it's too bright and it's energy is spilling so much so fast that it's almost like u need to move away from it........ I think I call this reverting to a childlike state when one wasn't scared to also shine their own lights and spill their balls of energy and create a third ball to play with....imagination.... notes........ I see how clearly in a hospital room I contain that ball of light and I use it to burn within and it empties me fully so christ words are not my words and they shine thru me and thru my eyes and 'sakra' or holy presence....

The words that  comes to mind. ... the work of polarities -balance- in one state I am too bright to be seen and in the other I am but a vessel for something greater than me.

I also love who I am
Praise be to god for all my blessings
And all my sufferings, they both bring
Me closer to you in grateful,. And in journey

Amen