Takin off- and here I am

Is this body, in this seat any different than the

Being that was in that seat arriving just a few days ago

And what was gifted in these few days.

Tears can well up if I truly breathe the space that

Can feel emotion of grateful for yes

What was gifted was so deeply appreciated in

Love, in the stillness of the sunrise which was gifted and received in peace, that kept my legs still -  timeless ‎as I opened to the morning light- as my heart received the blessings of angels along the morning shore.

I will be that blessing- this day and always

Twilight stars that belong to each of us

Shine like children ‎

And disappear when they are called into the light

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Can I breathe in that same light, that same calling 

Of this new beginning of this day‎

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Palm trees dance in the wind, waves crash onto themselves and from the beginning of time the horizon awaits 

Light begins

As I breathe the breeze that I'm grateful for

This breathe, unencumbered except by what

I place in front of it, nothing is there

As the expanse of this sea in front of me, it flows onto itself and belongs to everything....

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Let me be known by you

Here I am

Discover yourself in me

Let me pass thru the center of my own nothingness 

And enter into infiniate reality

And awaken‎ as our true self

Today, aside this beach

I awake the baptism of your grace

And I know as long as there is even an I awaiting

I am standing on these sands of seeking

Lift me up so I need not stand at all

Except in your mercy

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Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.

Swinging Feet dangle along the dock 

Where we trespass to find such beauty

Whose to say I shouldn't trade my house for this one and wake up here everyday

Whose to say I dont- as I travel along this life and time and love comes and passes thru me, it is me and when it's shared I'm just reminded that I am most alive- in the sailence most full in the giving most grasps by faith I am lifted up into, synchonicity might as well be a book that connects all moment to all moments and I glide the the time-

Let me be known by you

Here I am

Discover yourself in me

Let me pass thru the center of my own nothingness 

And enter into infiniate reality

And awaken‎ as our true self

Today, aside this beach

I awake the baptism of your grace

And I know as long as there is even an I awaiting

I am standing on these sands of seeking

Lift me up so I need not stand at all

Except in your mercy

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Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.

And the mutual singing if praise is also
The song of prayer

"Your words are well received.

They are part of the prayer of connection

Of being seen, being loved in all your divine forms

I am grateful god has brought you into my life as your love for your work, your baba and the children shines a much needed light in the eternal fabric of the world.""

Amen

Karenji

When one realizes they are in the hospital room the energy in the room which gives the greatest peace is taking care of the other people that also love so healing can begin.... 

What if love could be absorbed......
And faith could heal

Lord bring that thru me  into the room
Let me be ur instrument of healing

Surely as long as I believe it's not me
But my love of christ
My christ heart I pray to work thru me
As christ comes alive in me
Thru love in  heaven on earth

'I will not leave you orphans". Mt 46'

Let me be an instrucement of healing, when the energy is fear, when it's fear that the machines beep on, all thru the night, timeless sounds a 24 hour clock that stopped beating marking time as we know it and time stops....

Let me be an instrument of healing thru my peace. Let me burn iff the veil that seperates this moment from...the divine power which is more than we can know, whose faith is the healing, the illicior is ‎the love, the love of eachother and in god...

Let me be a vessel of this love, let me bring this light into the space for others to touch and feel and hold hand with. 

Lord, let me be a humble servant, so I can be worthy to keep my role thru eternity in the kingdom of heaven

Amen

Not all friends have the avilability to reach in, even if the situation requires it, sometimes the requirement isn't linear with the cause of its suffering. And whose to say the very cause isn't but the antiiobotic which is needed for the real illmess.  Don't we all end up exactly where we belong and aren't their beautiful angels sent from God to hear the words when it's time to remember....

When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”

Mark 10:47

Prayer

  Lord, give us the humility of this blind beggar.  In reality, we are no different from him as we need the same mercy

that he received.  Have mercy on us, O Lord, have mercy.

 Amen

Words they don't change too much, they are the same as I am

They belong to me, just a few in endless shapes and forms and sounds.

The doors of percention open

It is myself

I

And a thousand colors swirling with me

I shine that light

I shine the light of christ for all to feel, see! Warmth radiates fom my smile and I become the love I want in gift

I come in truth

I sail a long river and row back again

It is joy I breathe before this sunrise

This day

My daughter birthday

I journey thru these births, giving birth, celebrating birth and the birthing of my death

I am a sojourner destined to walk a thousand years until I arrive at myself

Kmg-2017

Night time sky

Moonless

Silent

Stillness moves me

I breathe deeply

Alone

Connected

Alive

Silence fills the room and it is full

Immortality does not inhere in a human being but rests on a relation, on a relationship, with what is eternal, what makes eternity meaningful. This abidingness, which gives life and can fulfill it, is truth. It is also love. Man can therefore live forever, because he is able to have a relationship with that which gives the eternal. "The soul" is our term for that in us which offers a foothold for this relation. Soul is nothing other than man's capacity for relatedness with truth, with love eternal. And in this way, we can get right the real order of priorities: the truth and love that we call "God" give man eternity, and because in the spirit and soul of man matter is integrated, matter attains in him to the fulfilled completeness of the resurrection. 

Joseph Ratzinger 

The dew drips off the windows and still I can't see. I hold is my hand a collection of grateful as mediallions on my rosary clink in the prayer. And so do i

Perhaps I am stronger than I think.

Perhaps I am even afraid of my own strength, and turn it against myself, thus making myself weak. Making myself secure. Making myself guilty.

Perhaps I am most afraid of the strength of God in me. Perhaps I would rather be guilty and weak in myself, than strong in Him whom I cannot understand. 

Thomas Merton

Look here at me,

I am atop the greenest pasture, somewhere over the cliff are crashing waves on a white sand beach. I see a path down

To the waterside.

The sunrise is following me and is aleady there

I'm in white, a tank dress that falls with scarfs of various sizes around my waist.

I'm waving a flag, white no yellow,

Why don't I turn and skip to the sea

Back to the mountains edge

I'm seeking for what is coming towards me

I can not see

My eyes are open the distance where I am looking ahead I can not see‎, I head so forward in looking I also can't see my feet....

And I forget they are already on the path....

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KMG2017‎

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Still Is my being

Long strides my legs move

Beating breathe ssrinking coffee

Night turns to day

And I am still waiting to be healed

I qqyiver into the request of the unknown

And here is where I feel the prayer 

Of words not my own‎

Water falls as I listen to the sounds, splashing into itself we only hear it as it returns near-

And what sound is made when ur heart pour into itself and unveils it's nature

What sound does love make? 

Kmg2017

before you know love

Before you know love

You must loose it

Like a pitcher filled to overflowing ad then poured out

Empty like it was on the potters wheel being molding

To be filled every lasting with waters of life…..

Before you know love,

You must loose it

You must loose it in the dark of the night and

Cry out love love where are you

And the tears and tears empty your soul

Til it hurts and then its only love that soothes

Love for its unobtainable essense that wakes you

Up in the giving and then its all there is. To give love

Before you know love, hold it, you must become it

In the emptiest darkest hour of the right, what you have lost

Becomes what you give in the seeking

And the darkness fades to morning

Coffee reminds me my heart is beating with the world

Alive is my prescense and I hold back dancing

Joy is the heart filled with ur glory

Glory for this day is to praise god

To direct all my thoughts and energy to

A will I can not know for me

So I do what I need to

What is infront of me as conscience as I can

Without story

For the story is in this humble silence

The dew on the window

The breathe in my lungs

The love in my heart

Amen

Phil. 413

10But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at the last your care of me hath flourished again; wherein ye were also careful, but ye lacked opportunity. 11Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. 12I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. 13I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

psalm 61

To the chief Musician upon Neg'inah, A Psalm of David.
1	Hear my cry, O God;          attend unto my prayer.
2	From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee,          when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I;
3	for thou hast been a shelter for me,          and a strong tower from the enemy.
4	I will abide in thy tabernacle for ever:          I will trust in the covert of thy wings. Selah.
5	For thou, O God, hast heard my vows:          thou hast given me the heritage of those that fear thy name.
6	Thou wilt prolong the king's life:          and his years as many generations.
7	He shall abide before God for ever:          O prepare mercy and truth, which may preserve him.
8	So will I sing praise unto thy name for ever,          that I may daily perform my vows.

Who I am doesn't change as I have been writing it's how I deal with the moments at hand, how enough is the suffering...must I be hit with cancer or death to receive and churn out the gift of christ in 'my' storyline, can I be greater than it. Can I be alone truly in the potters vessell and wait to be filled with water, or changed into wine, so that I may be quench to the thirst of those u place infront of me. 

Amen

Time stands still the dark of the night isn't yet home and I am floating in timeless being. 

Christ's heart in the picture that joins me home from France, brings me to the church in corsica where people of old painted it with barbe wire around...is it our lords thorned crown of salvation, is is the message of the paradox of life...is there no truth that stands alone without the other polar opposite to site it a standing at all, 

And isn't the word paradox itself from the ego for all that is has no words.... open heart of christ take me home....

Amen

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Thomas Merton quotes 

“The beginning of love is the will to let those we love be perfectly themselves, the resolution not to twist them to fit our own image. If in loving them we do not love what they are, but only their potential likeness to ourselves, then we do not love them: we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them”
― Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island

“The beginning of love is the will to let those we love be perfectly themselves, the resolution not to twist them to fit our own image.”
― Thomas Merton, The Way of Chuang Tzu

“Art enables us to find ourselves and lose ourselves at the same time.”
― Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island

“My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.”
― Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude

“Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone - we find it with another.”
― Thomas Merton, Love and Living

“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope.”
― Thomas Merton

“If you want to identify me, ask me not where I live, or what I like to eat, or how I comb my hair, but ask me what I am living for, in detail, ask me what I think is keeping me from living fully for the thing I want to live for.”
― Thomas Merton

“To be grateful is to recognize the Love of God in everything He has given us - and He has given us everything. Every breath we draw is a gift of His love, every moment of existence is a grace, for it brings with it immense graces from Him.
Gratitude therefore takes nothing for granted, is never unresponsive, is constantly awakening to new wonder and to praise of the goodness of God. For the grateful person knows that God is good, not by hearsay but by experience. And that is what makes all the difference.”
― Thomas Merton

“Our job is to love others without stopping to inquire whether or not they are worthy. That is not our business and, in fact, it is nobody's business. What we are asked to do is to love, and this love itself will render both ourselves and our neighbors worthy.”
― Thomas Merton

And the smoke filled to the temple and they dropped to their knees in worship.

Bonfires infront of churches during mass, are they some sort of island smoking prayers like in scents in a Greek church...

It's the first day of the calender year and I am the same.

Silence is my friend and while I could choose to spend the day by the fire, in holybooks and chants, I choose so to be molded and softened so the wax of my she'll can receive the imprint of something more than I know. To comtemplate any anything is to remain idle, to empty to nothing is to be filled.....and it's not my doing, I walk blindly to the threshing floor and there I stay, humble and soft yearing for the beloved.... -kmg