Poem i Wrote

I wake
love is chiding me
For my mind wants one things to see
But love, its inside me


In love, its beauty, its all around me
I live in love, its besides me
small hearts beating in the bed
i lie close, feel the sweat we shed


My friends, already texting me
I share my love
So they reach out to me


I wake
Love is all around me
Cause I am love
just look through me


So all illusion
try suffering me
i might get caught
i train
so I can let it be


Cause all there is
and all i have


its just LOVE
thats whats inside of me

RUMI translated by Coleman Barks 1994

This being human is a guest-house


Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.


Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.


He may be clearing you out for some new delight.



The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.


Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each guest has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

The Soul Flaw

By; Rabbi Zalman Schachter


Every soul, truly a part of gods holy perfection, is possessed of a flaw.

This flaw, like the fire of an opal, is also that souls special charm and attraction.

The difference between the fire and the flaw is only in the refraction of the light.

What we consider the persons flaw can become a vice and that very same trait in a different light can become a virtue.

The souls main task is to work on and with the flaw...

One of the most crucial issues in the examination of ones conscience is the search for the awareness of the one basic flaw-glory

The flaw and glory are two sides of the same configuration of the soul.

It takes great vigilance to learn to move the flaw to the right light where the glory in it shows..

The areas of success are unfortunately not the areas of the test of life.

The flaw is multi- leveled so that when one manages to control its behavior it will show itself again in attitude and in the transfer of energy..

given that it becomes controlled in attitude,

it will show itself on the feeling plane

and once controlled there it will manifest

on the plane of thought

James Allen written in 1901

I followed happiness to make her mine,

Past towering oak and swinging ivy vine,

She fled, I chased,oer slanting hill and dale,

O'er fields and meadows, in purpling vale,

Pursuing rapidly, oer dashing stream

scaled the cliffs where eagles scream,

I traversed swiftly every land and sea

But always happiness eluded me.

Exhaused, fainting, I pursued no more

But sank to rest upon a barren shore.

One came and asked for food and one for alms

I placed the bread and gold in bony palms

One came for sympathy and one for rest

I shared with every needy one, my best

When lo! Sweet happiness, with form divine

Stood by me, whispering softly,"I AM THINE"

On magic

A child asked:
Do you want to see my magic trick?
Do you want to see me make a coin appear in my hand?

and you answer:
Yes I would love to see your Magic Trick

and the child shows you his open hands, nothing in either of them, is agreed
then he asks you to close your eyes...............................................................

and behind your closed eyes he takes the coin from his pocket and puts it in his hand
and when its time to be asked to open your eyes,

Magic: The Coin is in my hand !


Smiles all around.!

In Raising Six Children In New York City i might dwell on the lesson here to learn that
to this child, this was magic and a good lesson to the parent to practice their skills and HOLD BACK stating the obvious.

In Raising Myself I hear the world of the bible "Ye shall not enter the gates of heaven unless ye become again like little children"

For it touches every religion and belief that within each of us is the ability to make magic,
and though the magic we make might be as simple as choosing to just let something go

So obvious and Magic at the same time

THE DASH Linda Ellis 1966

I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
And spoke of the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard;
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect
And more often wear a smile,
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

The Invitation by Oriah

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to knowwhat you ache for
and if you dare to dreamof meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon..
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it or fade itor fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic
to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint anotherto be true to yourself.
If you can bearthe accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake and
shout to the silver of the full moon,“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you knowor how you came to be here.I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and
if you truly likethe company you keepin the empty moments.

In the beginning.....

Raising six children was born out of the need to share the joy and tips of

raising six children in New York City, with mothers, families and people all around me

After writing for one year, I took a one year break, to read my own words and to read

the words of other great parenting GURUS....which lead me down the road of all Gurus which lead me down the road of holy works of famous rabbi's, of the Kaballah, of the teachings of Jesus, Christianity, Buddhism, Hindism, gospels of matthew and those of ramakrishna.

Audible.Com has reported I listened to over 192 lectures in the past two years from the words of Richard Alpert, Robert Thurman,H. Scott Peck, Don Miguel Ruiz, Wayne Dryer,Hal runkel, Rabbi Michael Laitman, William James and Ken Wilbur, moreover parenting greats, from the 50's and through the years of the technology era and computer child raising.

In the past year I have been to various lectures at the open center from thyroid to Jane Fonda, joined pacifica.edu and attended both mystery schools and marriage counselling ceu credit, programs, read all the "Books of the Dead" have membership into the Tibet house, attended Anthony Robbins" Ultimate Power program and "walked on fire" as well as sat in meditation and dharma talks at the Village Zendo.

I am very excited to share some of my favorite inspirational works here.

Raising myself is meant to be a collection to archive for myself the works that i have been touched by, continue to touch me and continue me in the path of the heart, which is what Raising Six Children has opened most for me

my heart !

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