Now

Few are the bubbles of thoughts that can fill my brain and

Take me away to travel (future)to lists of what is needed in the Townhouse (fear)

Or my loving Children organizing them- (order) endlessly facetiming them ( connection)

 

Im ever so grateful for the spacious wind ,

the sound of the birds,

the spreading out of time

Ever present this moment that I can see

I can see - the distance on my horizon

Every present this moment I can hear-

Hear me calling away towards

 Future, Fear, order and connection  

 

Thank goodness or I might drift away into god

 

blinded each day by the gaze of the sunrise

Swaddled under moons twinkling blanket of sky

 

I get excited into the moment of planning

- I negotiate with myself ….

Efficient and diligent I sit on fear,

Something I haven’t even seen is driving perfection

as if it can be ordered-

as I order the kids schedules

And cars and cape air and coaches and drivers and flights

as we whisk everyone home and

everyone gets the memo

 

Peace lies with it all

space and time I have befriended

and the new norm vacation is

21 days.

 

Kmg 2020

Sent from Mail for Windows 10

 

Most high god

O nobilissima viriditas

By Hildegard von Bingen

(1098 - 1179)

English version by Barbara Newman

 

Most noble

evergreen with your roots

in the sun:

you shine in the cloudless

sky of a sphere no earthly

eminence can grasp,

enfolded in the clasp

of ministries divine.

You blush like the dawn,

you burn like a flame

of the sun.

By the sea

It’s on my knees

Darkness

Sounds of the sea

I see the shimmering water

Under the street lamp

God moves in the light of the night

God moves in me

I am the sea

I close my eyes

And I am the wind

And the light twinkling under the moon

And the street lamp

Kmg2020

Living in a tree house

Based on my love of the world and understanding of deep interdependence of all things, I vow

          To live in Earth more lightly and less violently on the food, products and energy I consume.

          To commit myself daily to the healing of the world and the welfare of all beings; to discern and replace human systems of oppression and harm.

          To invite personal discomfort as an opportunity to share in the challenge of our collective liberation.

          To draw inspiration, strength and guidance from the living Earth, from our ancestors and the future generations, and from our siblings of all species.

          To help others in their work for the world and to ask for help when I feel the need.

          To pursue a daily spiritual practice that clarifies my mind, strengthens my heart and supports me in observing these vows.

 

Only for a second

and its only for a second

that my heart stops --allowing for a wimpering 

a sadness and joy that emotion can not contain so its released in a cry

and there is nothing to say to anyone about anything

god sees the story and humble am i that i have none for i have

but barely reached my full potention in the heart of christ, in the eyes

of god, in the time i am blessed to do this work here on earth 

and this work is no work and all of it. 

blessed are he who believes and can not see

its enough of a suffering to be in grace

only for a second.

kmg2020  

New Years morning

 

I stand still long enough,

hands on hips, moving my weight from side to side as if each hip gyration up and down will pump new information to the decisions infront of me

 

Should I stay or should I go. ? 

Like battleships coming on the horizon, thoughts and stories

They can be told endlessly and leave no room to hear

 I am home wherever I am, I am in christ heart and in the resting there now- is an uneasiness

That I am not in service that I am not in love and that the loving I offer out can be larger and more

 

Grandson david arrives for a month- I will be grounded so stay-

 

HILLSONG plays on my laptop, I order a speaker from amazon as its just not loud enough- My cortina who resided in the speaker I brough passed away with the other nights storm.

 

I decide to go Kayaking, I hear Gordon say don’t go alone

I decide to go , the time is sunrise,after new years eve,,,, I am sure Gordon will approve

 

I collect my passport and money and hide them in an unused bathroom inside a towel roll

I leave behind my phone and computer and bring my rosary and a bandana for my adventure

 

Back and forth I paddle- waves are building and I learn how to attend to them on an angle

Dark clouds draw them

 

And I paddle in

 

Should I stay or should I go?

 

Its nice to have the question-😊

 

 

Sent from Mail for Windows 10

 

the silence
it can be full with the listening
  instead i reach for a thought
      which is backwards
it will take me backwards and lead me down a road i have been before
which has arrived
and brought me here

the tasks
i choose to perform
 bring
me to the simple
wash the clothes
in a bucket
hang the clothes on the line
wind and clothespins speak of a more simple
time

waves crash and sunset is far away in the distance

kmg2019