Monday, December 14, 2020

Home

 And it was in my room with "mousey" I waited til dark. I prayed once to be blind cause I wanted a blind guide dog. Only mousey would know.


I drop into my heart and realize how answered those prayer were -- how blinded to the world I am and how present the need to give love and be loved was 

Today I have 6 pups in my children and the blessing to know I co create with God and humble mysef to know I can only ask for a small knowledge of what I have to put into words.

Like Solomon I pray to be known and for the knowledge to be bestowed as the greatest gift - I silent to allow consideration - knowing
im here.

Amen
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Monday, November 9, 2020

Tibetan book of the dead

Now when the bardo of dying appears, I will abandon attachment and grasping to everything, Enter, undistractedly, a state in which the instructions are clear, And transfer my own awareness into the realm of unborn space; As I am about to leave this compound body of flesh and blood, I will realize it is a transitory illusion.

Sunday, October 25, 2020

Rilke

Ah! The earth’s losses — who fathoms them all? Only those who sing in spite of them, praising the heart that was born into wholeness. Rilke

Friday, October 9, 2020

Please Call Me by My True Names By Thich Nhat Hanh (1929 - ) Don't say that I will depart tomorrow -- even today I am still arriving. Look deeply: every second I am arriving to be a bud on a Spring branch, to be a tiny bird, with still-fragile wings, learning to sing in my new nest, to be a caterpillar in the heart of a flower, to be a jewel hiding itself in a stone. I still arrive, in order to laugh and to cry, to fear and to hope. The rhythm of my heart is the birth and death of all that is alive. I am the mayfly metamorphosing on the surface of the river. And I am the bird that swoops down to swallow the mayfly. I am the frog swimming happily in the clear water of a pond. And I am the grass-snake that silently feeds itself on the frog. I am the child in Uganda, all skin and bones, my legs as thin as bamboo sticks. And I am the arms merchant, selling deadly weapons to Uganda. I am the twelve-year-old girl, refugee on a small boat, who throws herself into the ocean after being raped by a sea pirate. And I am the pirate, my heart not yet capable of seeing and loving. I am a member of the politburo, with plenty of power in my hands. And I am the man who has to pay his "debt of blood" to my people dying slowly in a forced-labor camp. My joy is like Spring, so warm it makes flowers bloom all over the Earth. My pain is like a river of tears, so vast it fills the four oceans. Please call me by my true names, so I can hear all my cries and my laughter at once, so I can see that my joy and pain are one. Please call me by my true names, so I can wake up, and so the door of my heart can be left open, the door of compassion.

Wednesday, October 7, 2020

Rilke 

The hour is striking so close above me, so clear and sharp, that all my senses ring with it. I feel it now: there’s a power in me to grasp and give shape to my world. I know that nothing has ever been real without my beholding it. All becoming has needed me. My looking ripens things and they come toward me, to meet and be met. Rilke

Monday, October 5, 2020

I am here

There are great highs and there are fears and there are troubles There are sufferings my loved ones are Experiencing in all forms And I am here The silence opens space Presence It makes room for the story So together We are here In just what is As it is No pushing No pulling I am here KMGk 2020

Saturday, October 3, 2020

Sunrise 

The rain clears the wind motions the clouds it lights them in pink and hues of light that warm the souls for the fire of sunrise I’m reminded today authenticity can not be altered for pleasures sake and our journies are our own In this learning I pray them to be a gift to all I can touch without clinging or repose I’m drawn to A dream poem I quote It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesnt interest me what planets are squaring your moon... I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain mine or your own without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy mine or your own if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful to be realistic to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. If you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. If you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see Beauty even when it is not pretty every day. And if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure yours and mine and still stand at the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes." It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments kmg/oriah

Tuesday, September 29, 2020

GIBRAN-

 So many times for so many years i have listened to THE PROPHET. Each story, a song, and oh how each song sings in tune with the times one can hear it, for me today i sing about pleasure......


    Pleasure is a freedom-song,
    But it is not freedom.
    It is the blossoming of your desires,
    But it is not their fruit.
    It is a depth calling unto a height,
    But it is not the deep nor the high.
    It is the caged taking wing,
    But it is not space encompassed.
    Ay, in very truth, pleasure is a freedom-
song.
    And I fain would have you sing it with
fullness of heart; yet I would not have you
lose your hearts in the singing.
 
    Some of your youth seek pleasure as if it
were all, and they are judged and rebuked.
    I would not judge nor rebuke them. I
would have them seek.
    For they shall find pleasure, but not her
alone;
    Seven are her sisters, and the least of them
is more beautiful than pleasure.
    Have you not heard of the man who was
digging in the earth for roots and found a
treasure?
 
    And some of your elders remember
pleasures with regret like wrongs com-
mitted in drunkenness.
    But regret is the beclouding of the mind
 and not its chastisement.
    They should remember their pleasures with
gratitude, as they would the harvest of a
summer.
    Yet if it comforts them to regret, let them
be comforted.
 
    And there are among you those who are
neither young to seek nor old to remember;
    And in their fear of seeking and remem-
bering they shun all pleasures, lest they
neglect the spirit or offend against it.
    But even in their foregoing is their
pleasure.
    And thus they too find a treasure though
they dig for roots with quivering hands.
    But tell me, who is he that can offend the
spirit?
    Shall the nightingale offend the stillness of
the night, or the firefly the stars?
    And shall your flame or your smoke
burden the wind?
    Think you the spirit is a still pool which
you can trouble with a staff?
 
    Oftentimes in denying yourself pleasure
you do but store the desire in the recesses
of your being.
    Who knows but that which seems omitted
today, waits for tomorrow?
    Even your body knows its heritage and
its rightful need and will not be deceived.
    And your body is the harp of your soul,
    And it is yours to bring forth sweet
music from it or confused sounds.
 
     And now you ask in your heart, “How
shall we distinguish that which is good in
pleasure from that which is not good?”
     Go to your fields and your gardens, and
you shall learn that it is the pleasure of
the bee to gather honey of the flower,
     But it is also the pleasure of the flower
to yield its honey to the bee.
     For to the bee a flower is a fountain of
life,
     And to the flower a bee is a messenger of
love,
     And to both, bee and flower, the giving
and the receiving of pleasure is a need and
an ecstasy.
 

IN THE MOMENT

living words and spirit move within my heart and life
and when they come together in unison all that i can feel is grateful

The story washes away
and the moment , life, becomes the living.

and a split second the world changes
and i am still the same

kmg

Monday, September 28, 2020

I am you

And I give love away As easily as water For I am love I am a tree whose roots are planted in the soil/soul of heaven and my fruit is sweet My human desire is for a taste myself (self) My tears water the canopy of growth Which shades so many And feeds so much I am swirling sunrise I am light and laughter I am as full as I can Be empty Lord I breathe deeply And I am you

Sunrise 

Lord It can only be your grace that lifts the veils of my heart to water my love thru attractions and affections How every soon clever a reminder that all I am is in me To remind me that desire is of the ego And it is in the offering I am to receive With the gift that I can give Blessed be my lord god I kneel before this sunrise And pray : I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. Philippines 4:12

Saturday, September 26, 2020

This moment 

It’s grace that draws me here

Faith be drawn


To have the ever most inner knowing

God joins me here

Here this moment in all the joy in all the pain this moment to be an instrument of healing this moment to be healed it’s this moment we live heaven on earth 


Amen 

Kmg 2020

Friday, September 25, 2020

Poem Shared

Beginners By Denise Levertov (1923 - 1997) Dedicated to the memory of Karen Silkwood and Eliot Gralla "From too much love of living, Hope and desire set free, Even the weariest river Winds somewhere to the sea--" But we have only begun To love the earth. We have only begun To imagine the fullness of life. How could we tire of hope? -- so much is in bud. How can desire fail? -- we have only begun to imagine justice and mercy, only begun to envision how it might be to live as siblings with beast and flower, not as oppressors. Surely our river cannot already be hastening into the sea of nonbeing? Surely it cannot drag, in the silt, all that is innocent? Not yet, not yet-- there is too much broken that must be mended, too much hurt we have done to each other that cannot yet be forgiven. We have only begun to know the power that is in us if we would join our solitudes in the communion of struggle. So much is unfolding that must complete its gesture, so much is in bud.

Thursday, September 24, 2020

Greg Braden prayers —shared to share

I pray, Graceful change on Earth, Healing to all Life, and Peace in all Worlds. I choose the track of light, love and peace, and wrap this around our community.

Morning

This amazing and colorful fabric I’m weaving Full of life’s threads will blanket a generation I’m yet to know -kmg 2020

Monday, September 21, 2020

Sunrise

Sunrise is approaching And I feel less alone as emotion joins me here In me With me A sigh releases as to say What are you looking for loved one I am here I am here in the cool air that shivers your lips and I am here kissing your body as I light up your skin Come come come join me in the sunrise And breathe endless light thru eternity Kmg2020 KMG

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

Iphone

The iPhone quiets me it’s yet conquered the work, of how I’m going to express what is already created and wants to be heard - I slice it interruptIng a certain flowing process Spirit moves more freely then a tapping finger and the Morse code attempts to share a message that I need to learn kmg KMG2020

Saturday, September 12, 2020

Stillness  

When productivity is our main way of overcoming self-doubt, we are extremely vulnerable to rejection and criticism and prone to inner anxiety and depression. Productivity can never give the deep sense of belonging we crave. The more we produce, the more we realize that successes and results cannot give us the experience of “at homeness.” In fact, our productivity reveals to us that we are driven by fear. Nouwen

September nyc

Sunrise finds me in my home Effortlessly motions become me and my legs bike across the wind balancing coffee and streetlights Ferry boats and bridges replace shorelines gratefully and humbly I am blinded from sight and derivation and I cry Holy holy holy Lord god of hosts Heaven snd earth are filled with your glory Hosanna Emotion fills me I well up with unknowing And a desire to run out to the supermarket and make egg sandwiches for the homeless 😀💐❤️

Friday, August 28, 2020

Poem

“The most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you ll never have.” Søren Kierkegaard

Friday, August 7, 2020

Poem

By Muhyiddin ibn Arabi (1165 - 1240) My heart wears all forms: For gazelles it is an open field, for monks a cloister. It is a temple for idols, and for pilgrims the Ka'ba. It is the Torah's tablets and the pages of the Quran. Love is the faith I follow. Whichever path Love's caravan takes, that is my road and my religion.

Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Prose

Blinded by the sunrise I capture beauty behind the light Waves crash and breathe blows back time I call to Jesus The silent nature answes my prayers with a full heart

Sunday, May 10, 2020

Mothers day

A lifetime passes in the moment and memories recall times when all presence was demanding to be known- flames burn and ashes sprinkle across the soils blooming new petals awakening in a season that has yet to be born - kmg

Saturday, May 9, 2020

Mary oliver

Mary Oliver Hurricane It didn’t behave like anything you had ever imagined. The wind tore at the trees, the rain fell for days slant and hard. The back of the hand to everything. I watched the trees bow and their leaves fall and crawl back into the earth. As though, that was that. This was one hurricane I lived through, the other one was of a different sort, and lasted longer. Then I felt my own leaves giving up and falling. The back of the hand to everything. But listen now to what happened to the actual trees; toward the end of that summer they pushed new leaves from their stubbed limbs. It was the wrong season, yes, but they couldn’t stop. They looked like telephone poles and didn’t care. And after the leaves came blossoms. For some things there are no wrong seasons. Which is what I dream of for me. Mary Oliver, A Thousand Mornings.

Ups And Downs

There are many ways to practice open awareness, in all the ups and downs but the essence of them all is simply to show up for your life — senses open, mind and heart open — and let yourself be as free of conceptual limitations as you can be. In other words, let yourself be as free as you can from labels — “good” and “bad,” “self” and “other,” and all the rest. Let yourself be in this state as much as possible.

Friday, May 8, 2020

Monsters or virus 

Cutting Loose By William Stafford (1914 - 1993) Sometimes from sorrow, for no reason, you sing. For no reason, you accept the way of being lost, cutting loose from all else and electing a world where you go where you want to. Arbitrary, a sound comes, a reminder that a steady center is holding all else. If you listen, that sound will tell you where it is and you can slide your way past trouble. Certain twisted monsters always bar the path -- but that's when you get going best, glad to be lost, learning how real it is here on earth, again and again.

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

Prayer

My eyes look out a child and I see not how my face would look in a mirror silence after storms of a dry days curtain falls to night kidsfed honeless fed drywall and wood lumber and paint tenants fears markets small victories and the body circles the resevoir listening to rilke I feel tears as I expand into the no thought and I grab onto the most immediate emotion that carries message i can share "depth" and im drawn away. Further ahead lies another consciousness tommorow another day substain me - as i praise you and i sing a new mantra i know all things work together for your good. i bow my head : humble servant - grace holds me now Lord I am not worthy that I should come over your roof, say the word and my soul shall be healed. (mtw)

Rilke on solitude

Therefore, dear Sir, love your solitude and try to sing out with the pain it causes you. For those who are near you are far away... and this shows that the space around you is beginning to grow vast.... be happy about your growth, in which of course you can't take anyone with you, and be gentle with those who stay behind; be confident and calm in front of them and don't torment them with your doubts and don't frighten them with your faith or joy, which they wouldn't be able to comprehend. Seek out some simple and true feeling of what you have in common with them, which doesn't necessarily have to alter when you yourself change again and again; when you see them, love life in a form that is not your own and be indulgent toward those who are growing old, who are afraid of the aloneness that you trust.... and don't expect any understanding; but believe in a love that is being stored up for you like an inheritance, and have faith that in this love there is a strength and a blessing so large that you can travel as far as you wish without having to step outside it.

Greek Easter morning

‎Morning comes and I reflect myself with pen and ink aside a sprawling lawn green as the mointain pasture spead out infront of the bay window I look through Senses are large as I expand, to hear the water, the birds, the wind I speak inside in scripture and I know inetaly my fingers typing know only where my depths have traveled . Silence is my greatest teacher- Scripture is my foundation where I point thru And love It's presence, it's intention, it's abundance Is is love I say or is it god, who we can hold but in a breathe of praise and in a cry thru christs passion Amen Kmg2020

Sunday, April 12, 2020

Easter 

I breathe deep and close my eyes Time must pass for the thought I wake With to release themselves I breathe deep and close my eyes The candle flickers and the breathe now Comes from my heart and the sounds my voice makes are message I want to hear myself I breathe deep and pray for those this morning that suffer breathe and Emotion creates itself. It need to be present As I cry the words Christ in me I breathe deep and feed the breathe of Christ in me as I ask to be blinded to only what I can see this day Be this moment Be the love I was born to be and bring and leave behind. Amen Kmg2020 Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.

Saturday, April 11, 2020

Easter morning

And is it prophecy  That sits us in a time where no future Can be planned. Not in this moment Where presence  is all that the body can Isolate itself into and the mind  Trapped or free ? Free in this moment to be or not be the motion of life the light not hidden under a lampshade but shining in the small corner of the world we are now assigned to. Each moment you can choose ro practice the presence of God or the presence of problems Trapped or free?  In fear or faith Without judgment ‎ easter morning Arises and ‎my heart arises with it This morning Each morning Singing a new song risen Amen Kmg2020 Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.

Sunday, March 15, 2020

Prayer

As Jonah continued to breathe in the belly of the whale was there faith


He was already eaten alive by the largest of creatures l


Was there faith in knowing eternities ago rooted a purpose to his life 


Was there space in the swimming darkness of water to float above -possibilities- to be and do different Should the light of day present itself again


And all that is silly message to no one


For the only voice hearing is my own

And I pray for the strength - grace and faith to choose love connection and opportunity to gather and connect over fear and non resilience 


Lord hear my prayer


Kmg 2020

Thursday, February 27, 2020

Now

Few are the bubbles of thoughts that can fill my brain and

Take me away to travel (future)to lists of what is needed in the Townhouse (fear)

Or my loving Children organizing them- (order) endlessly facetiming them ( connection)

 

Im ever so grateful for the spacious wind ,

the sound of the birds,

the spreading out of time

Ever present this moment that I can see

I can see - the distance on my horizon

Every present this moment I can hear-

Hear me calling away towards

 Future, Fear, order and connection  

 

Thank goodness or I might drift away into god

 

blinded each day by the gaze of the sunrise

Swaddled under moons twinkling blanket of sky

 

I get excited into the moment of planning

- I negotiate with myself ….

Efficient and diligent I sit on fear,

Something I haven’t even seen is driving perfection

as if it can be ordered-

as I order the kids schedules

And cars and cape air and coaches and drivers and flights

as we whisk everyone home and

everyone gets the memo

 

Peace lies with it all

space and time I have befriended

and the new norm vacation is

21 days.

 

Kmg 2020

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Friday, February 21, 2020

Most high god

O nobilissima viriditas


By Hildegard von Bingen

(1098 - 1179)


English version by Barbara Newman


 


Most noble

evergreen with your roots

in the sun:

you shine in the cloudless

sky of a sphere no earthly

eminence can grasp,

enfolded in the clasp

of ministries divine.


You blush like the dawn,

you burn like a flame

of the sun.

Saturday, February 15, 2020

By the sea

It’s on my knees

Darkness

Sounds of the sea

I see the shimmering water

Under the street lamp

God moves in the light of the night

God moves in me

I am the sea

I close my eyes

And I am the wind

And the light twinkling under the moon

And the street lamp

Kmg2020


Monday, January 6, 2020

Living in a tree house


Based on my love of the world and understanding of deep interdependence of all things, I vow


          To live in Earth more lightly and less violently on the food, products and energy I consume.

          To commit myself daily to the healing of the world and the welfare of all beings; to discern and replace human systems of oppression and harm.

          To invite personal discomfort as an opportunity to share in the challenge of our collective liberation.

          To draw inspiration, strength and guidance from the living Earth, from our ancestors and the future generations, and from our siblings of all species.

          To help others in their work for the world and to ask for help when I feel the need.

          To pursue a daily spiritual practice that clarifies my mind, strengthens my heart and supports me in observing these vows.

 

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Only for a second 

and its only for a second


that my heart stops --allowing for a wimpering 

a sadness and joy that emotion can not contain so its released in a cry


and there is nothing to say to anyone about anything

god sees the story and humble am i that i have none for i have

but barely reached my full potention in the heart of christ, in the eyes

of god, in the time i am blessed to do this work here on earth 


and this work is no work and all of it. 


blessed are he who believes and can not see

its enough of a suffering to be in grace


only for a second.



kmg2020  



Wednesday, January 1, 2020

New Years morning

 

I stand still long enough,

hands on hips, moving my weight from side to side as if each hip gyration up and down will pump new information to the decisions infront of me

 

Should I stay or should I go. ? 

Like battleships coming on the horizon, thoughts and stories

They can be told endlessly and leave no room to hear

 I am home wherever I am, I am in christ heart and in the resting there now- is an uneasiness

That I am not in service that I am not in love and that the loving I offer out can be larger and more

 

Grandson david arrives for a month- I will be grounded so stay-

 

HILLSONG plays on my laptop, I order a speaker from amazon as its just not loud enough- My cortina who resided in the speaker I brough passed away with the other nights storm.

 

I decide to go Kayaking, I hear Gordon say don’t go alone

I decide to go , the time is sunrise,after new years eve,,,, I am sure Gordon will approve

 

I collect my passport and money and hide them in an unused bathroom inside a towel roll

I leave behind my phone and computer and bring my rosary and a bandana for my adventure

 

Back and forth I paddle- waves are building and I learn how to attend to them on an angle

Dark clouds draw them

 

And I paddle in

 

Should I stay or should I go?

 

Its nice to have the question-😊

 

 

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