And when the blessings of the morning fall into the day- I say

I'm makin bacon for christ within my son
I'm setting up the blow up bed for christ within the friends friend coming to stay
I'm kissing sleeping children as if annointing their foreheads with oil from my morning refueling
All of it- unchangingai stable- unconditional

And the devil shows his face in so many ways we think it's some character lurking in the dark with horns yet it's the spirit of darkness that I feel so strongly when im so swimming in the pool of christs blood, it shows itself in complain as if I am someone who can be wronged.... yet in christs love I am a reflection of the sin within in. , and the devil comes in planning... not don't sit with god I have things for u to think and future plans for u to make, yet it's the struggle between the plans and thy wil that doesn't allow a tommorow more brighter and more divine then any knowledge I can conguer myself in the timeless power struggle thinking I know better. BOOK OF JOB cpt 38-40 is this message it is the flesh to eat, "girl up ur loins" god says to job, you know nothing that I know". Grace be with us all this sunday morning- amen-kmg

" im so grateful that spirit flows through any dialogue and spacens the words to brush stroke more colorful the living moment.... and like the wind blowing the bamboo leaves infront my eyes in the window. Still the tree stands strong.

The water still and I think of the old zen tale "does the stillness receive the reflection and know the beauty it reflects."

Amen

I balanced a sort of financial bottoI balanced a sort of financial bottom hit in 2014 which in the height of my hospital hours and deep deep in my heart of compasion- that sitting here in 2018 I just am grateful and have the most amazing faith being a child of god, so what can I seek- but to connect in my heart - things might go up and down in the years of my life to come but I will always be my heart-kmg

m hit in 2014 which in the height of my hospital hours and deep deep in my heart of compasion- that sitting here in 2018 I just am grateful and have the most amazing faith being a child of god, so what can I seek- but to connect in my heart - things might go up and down in the years of my life to come but I will always be my heart-kmg

Emptiness is far from being nihilistic. In the end, it doesn’t reject anything; it simply helps us to lose our tendency to reify things or take things too personally

Life starts as a gift from the universe that comes with pain and difficulties. It doesn’t spare anyone, no matter how lucky, including the rich and powerful ones. Our response to suffering is individual. Some learn lessons from it. Others wallow in it, perpetuating their addiction to misery. Our conceptual apparatus is always trying to figure out the primary factor for all our woes. It doesn’t always perform good work in assessing the situation. It might see that uninvited mishaps and unfavorable circumstances are the factors that cause our unhappiness. With this notion, we’re often trying to be in control of our own life and the greater world, which is an impossible task, and we suffer endlessly from hope and fear, until some big awakening strikes us from within.

And there is that beautiful orange moment when my heart glows

A cloud passes and I speak out words

To stop the words as they come as my clouds and block the moments the tiniest perfect time moments of no time whose words mean nothing-

Here the clenched glory sitting in the

praise singing holy holy holy....

Amen

It's such a strong pull, it's an efortfull practice in prayer today to wash away the devil of self story while I'm in a gracious outpouring of love, gods grace within seems to need to have no self to be in. anything but compassion and all around me is to express that unconditional love and my lips quivers when I think I'm not worthy but weighing in the balance is now.... this moment and it's all love and beauty and may I walk all the days of my life, right here, right now, and prayer depth to know no different and pray, dear lord, no story can touch me outside thy will., and let thy will be done.... amen 

The sun shines upon me 

And I count

The church bells

One two three

Chiming eight times gives chance

For the words to vibrate within me

Lord have mercy

Christ have mercy

Bless me in grace

Bless all those who you bring to me

Thru you thru me 

Let this be grace

As I bow my head and

Out stretch my arms

I turn my palms up to you

Everlasting waters I yearn to qurench

This thirst and I yearn also for the never

Ending desire for you always

In me above this world and within it

Amen

Kmg 2018

Stillness

Watches the shadows‎

Light creates in the night room‎

My flat feet slip up towards my body

Makes  the V of my legs reflect and I am ever so still..... air does not move 

And it's naked skin moisture sweats over

It doesn't matter if I was in a monastary,. A mansion or a molehut, I am always the same.

And grateful in grace

Ever so grateful

Amen

-k‎

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Sent from my BlackBerry 10 smartphone.

Stafford
(1914 - 1993)
  

Starting here, what do you want to remember?
How sunlight creeps along a shining floor?
What scent of old wood hovers, what softened
sound from outside fills the air?

Will you ever bring a better gift for the world
than the breathing respect that you carry
wherever you go right now? Are you waiting
for time to show you some better thoughts?

When you turn around, starting here, lift this
new glimpse that you found; carry into evening
all that you want from this day. This interval you spent
reading or hearing this, keep it for life --

What can anyone give you greater than now,
starting here, right in this room, wh

Kmg

My fourth son's 17th birthday

"I am out finding a cake and balloons and I know ur sleeping this day- and I love u thru it all. You don't have to be or do anything for me to love u. You are in and from my veins and it will always be so... Happy 17th birthday..... (dotdotdot).mom

Things that are close seem far

As I navigate the roads of travel with 5 children.

I watch as I catch myself feeling anger for a wrong, someone who refuses a simple request. I see that emotion fleeting thru quickly as I can be angry in the moment at the action, but quickly seperate it as a feeling and hug and kiss that same son in love as he leaves-

I threaten to use his cc allowance to ship the bag he wouldn't take home, as he leaves for home and wants to go bag less and make me drag it, his things, thru Europe. I spout out working together, and my mistake to pack so much but help me fix my wrong. I appeal to the practical side of he has one flight nice to jfk and I'm headed thru italy on a car road trip and one more bag in tow this week is a Hugh help for him to take it to jfk. NO. I get. Leave it ( hence if I do I will have to replace all his clothing in sept for school so it's a win win threat to him)

Ahhh... why I am so in the story when it doesn't matter. I will love him thru it all....

Because it's all unconditional when it's real and flows thru my veins as me and still and always it's a gift.  

And a practice

And a guide...

And I'm proud of myself to not follow the fleeting moment into a dark angry place and yet there is nothing in me to weigh me any thing I deserve or need someone to be. And emotion spurs when I want to say "I am not worthy that you come under my roof, just say the word and you are healed" 

So the word is christ- and in the human world nothing is gonna come under ur roof to make it "as u see perfect to be" but say the world of christ no roof can cover or contain the larger heart of christ to live in.

Forgiveness of ourselves, then, implies an acceptance of our true value. The loss of a false self-image, if it is an image of superiority, or the need to hide our brokenness can bring anguish and inner pain. We can only accept this pain if we discover our true self beneath all the masks and realize that if we are broken, we are also more beautiful than we ever dared to suspect.

Jean Vanier

It seems so simple to think of what one is wanting is from lack of them having

All of what we are is already within us, can someone hand us beauty, love, health, isn't it a cultivation of the gift we are given and the faith that if we become them they will fill us more than anything that we can receive from the outside.

Whta we receive can be taken away so the gifts are received with attachment and fear.

Can't we exchange this fear into the understanding that dealth is part of our natural end and we don't live with that daily fear of ultimately our human life being taken away.

Can we not offer what we so need and find a new path building from within by what we give out.

I imagine the lack of what one seeks becomes full in the giving that lack simple is no more...

Amen

Kmg 2018

Without music the bird sing a constant song that announces the daybreak. ‎On cue together one sound amongst many

Kmg

I am a child of god with a  heart blessed with the grace to be ever thirsty for‎ his love , it makes me love, makes me pour out my offering as the only way, for in the silence of the utter joy of giving is god. And I rest and time is infinite for  the silence is a living in the soul and the heart beat is a faith of forevers love...

There is no story in this outpouring, there are eyes that see with the greatest of companion and I pray for a deeper reach, a energy connection, a new language that speaks my silence in the dark-

Amen

“When we are in our pure state of being, only then will we understand our reality, only then will we understand the words and thoughts, the counsel of saints and great souls.” Wisdom of Aghoreshwar Bhagwan Ram

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Every moment has grateful in it, and it smiles into the moment and bring love though. I am a child of god, all being my sisters and brothers, no action anyone can do where I can NOT see them too as a child of god, my neighbor to love...

Cloth me, feed me, care for me, visit me, what u do to the least you do also to me"
Jn 18)

Let me be a servant of this love and let me be grateful for all of the blessings of life and silence and peace so that I can bestrow such on all in my prescense-

Its very quiet the Humm of the ac steadies the silence, a small tic toc backdrops another sound, a fly whishes by, and time passes cleanly and I am

KmgBy Derek Walcott

(1930 - )
  

The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door,
in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. 
Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

 fleeting moment, like waves on the ocean, they crash thoughts that foam up emotions, and they are fleeting, crashing, part of the treasurey of the seas, whom also calm and silence themselves....

And this moment just is and silence can sustain a sunrise to sunset where activity burst in and the moment is to love it all and in it all find that there is love and joy and still fullness of s

tillness in all the activity.

The bird calls, the dog barks, the coffee percolates and ‎it's the 4th of july

Without poets, without artists, everything would fall apart into chaos. There would be no more seasons, no more civilizations, no more thought, no more humanity, no more life even; and impotent darkness would reign forever. Poets and artists together determine the features of their age, and the future meek

ly conforms to their edict.

Apollinaire

In my lens it's always the cross I see in nature's rising onto the earth and it's setting- I connect with this cross as it crosses me and thru it and in it someone there is a combined center where I live from and that living place breathes it's depths which beauty flows forth from. In that beauty is peace- pure- silent- and full of all I cam receive- prayer comes now- breathe is thirsty soul drinks heart opens- the cross in the sunrise- it crosses me- amen

This morning west hampton bay dunes. It's amazing.. Real colors of gods grace already given, our human condition already forgiven,  in every sunrise, touching every child of god who we are to love as our neighbors, with their own struggles and journies... may urs today be blessed -kmg