Monday, June 30, 2014

pray for me

Course of miracles is a book where u do one intention and one reading to 
meditate and draw Christ more into ur life, everyday for 365 days a year.

I hope one day to do it with someone or in a community daily for one year.

Book saying.....
Sin is a perception missing of the mark
""All of ur life experiences is what u think u have done to others...""
Hmmm.......
U gotta love people (period) without judgment , a big order now  for me, even as 
its true to my nature as well as protecting my children is true to it too. Can I 
truly be both. Pray for  me lord, have mercy....a sinner, give me strength, lead 
me thru the  narrow gate so I may praise ur glory thru my being, being an 
extension of ur light and love and let me shine freely, remove all obstacles in 
the way, lead me, I pray.

Amen 

Sunday, June 29, 2014

post

When the   lights are out, I get to be quiet and hear the pushing of the air 
thru the vents and the silence of the light that glows on the night tree outside 
my window

Both are a constant of the night
Both one can get lost in its stillness......

-k

bible




“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by 
the renewing of your mind.” 
Romans 12:2
 

gibran quote

A soul , often a battlefield, upon which your reason and judgment wage war 
against your passion and your appetite.

Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord 
and the rivalry of your elements into oneness and melody...
But how shall I, unless you yourselves ne also the peacemakers, nay, the lovers 
of ALL the elements.

And a gift from the sea ?

Your reason and passion are the rudder and the sail of your seafaring soul...
If either your sails or rudder be broken, you but toss and drift, or else he 
held at a standstill in mid seas.
For reason ruling alone, is a force confining and passion unattended is a flame 
that burns to its own destruction
Therefore ley your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion
That it may sing
And let it direct ur passion
With reason
That your passion may live through its own daily resurrection and like the 
pheonix rise above its own ashes !


-gibran

prose

Its like a knowing that all is beautiful as it is, and it doesn't include my 
drama

Long before me and long after me will be dramas, seperations, divorces, choices 
made and changed and it all doesn't matter

All that matters is now u spend this moment, how u see and hear and feel and 
give and am grateful for and laugh and love.

All the days out of laugh and love are out of sync with the grass that is below 
us ......

The dramas will not live on, the spirit of the soul and souls we touch will...

prose

Reading and writing beach side

How I yearn to share my full heart in times  like these with another....

While  so  defined by my marriage, like a song bird, in a cage. A freedom rings 
thru....

And yet, there is a balancing, a knowing,  its just another form of worshiping , 
which need not anything but to settle. ,not like  a window to open or shut or 
another to be heard......

quote

Your heart  knows  in silence
The secrets of the days and the nights
And  ur ears thirst for the sound of ur hearts knowledge

You would know in words that which you have always known in thought

You would touch with ur fingers the naked body of your dreams !


Gibran 

prose

And what do they call this time
Can morning be enough 
There for it must be how we hold it, how the pink reflects all  the color , a 
hugh, to the glory before it, and there is a seeing somewhere else before I 
can....and blankets of waves callamer to the shore,
it warms my feet. As I meet the bubbles it leaves behind....

prayer

Just back from morning church and what a glorious day to receive the message 
christ graces us with , every day, with every sunrise, set upon us is heaven on 
earth, set in our hearts is the holy spirit to lead us and guide us to the 
greatest good of every moment

Reborn in christ, things don't always look like we 'egos' think they should, 
haven't the blessings already been pouring out as I declare christ in my heart, 
haven't I already been reborn in love and glory and christ has already died for 
the sinms of the world, mine a pittance to even point out, I live as I am 
directed, I lay down myself to the greatest good so I should be so humble to 
receive such working in me.

Amen

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

I can see the beach. And I can silence to a beauty already within

I. Can feel lifting up inside me, in a yearning to meet the sunrise and as it 
spreads out to become day, I am its knowing
Its promise
Its possibility

I love my sports tennis I walk barefoot in
 as I think of dancing on the court

Ohjhh yes, the sea, the sunrise,  if memories were to feel, we would never 
forget.....

I cry the thick.  moist air of the dew, in a joyful sigh , as the birds sing 
same in the familiar cocquils and here I am one with nature and I wonder if it 
is all that matters, I wonder how ill ever return.........

Little sad now, maybe it has to run thru me....not that I want where I was, just 
need to be where I am and part of that is sadness, 

The other side of that is hope, that I can hold hands and laugh and love and be 
loved....and its enough to just be loving and giving and being the best I can be 
in the moment

Which is someone who can feel
And touch
And touch sadness

Full morning with kids..............................
Late sunrise
Bike ride
Coffee
Church
Dock
Tennis
Breakfast
Pool swim
Beach walk
Bike ride
Coffee
Residence pool swim

Spoke with shane, shabuda, jo anne, sameka, sabrina, gavin, frank, kyle, trent, 
rita, 

Played chess
Felt the wind.......
In silence

poem

Its like a knowing that all is beautiful as it is, and it doesn't include my 
drama

Long before me and long after me will be dramas, seperations, divorces, choices 
made and changed and it all doesn't matter

All that matters is now u spend this moment, how u see and hear and feel and 
give and am grateful for and laugh and love.

All the days out of laugh and love are out of sync with the grass that is below 
us ......

The dramas will not live on, the spirit of the soul and souls we touch will...

Thursday, June 19, 2014

prayer

There is an understanding in all religions, spirituallity  that I believe is 
rooted in the depths of suffering one uncovers in their life, and more than 
uncover, but become, become closer to god through the pain, the struggle, the 
bathing in the ultimate white light of love to find- Relief and strength and the 
presence.  of something. More than urself. 
Love...to feel the depths that love for urself and the world around you, is 
shining nothing is wrong, u are doing nothing that you can control, keep shining 
love and being that saint to your children and expand.....

In hindi, wasn't arjuna looking and finding krisha over and over and yet 
forgetting ?

In christianity, we bring our suffering to christ, as we feel already forgiven 
for our sins, I feel in the emotion of the crusifiiction  ,  he will take care 
of us ,
 fall to his mercy....

Amen

Monday, June 16, 2014

prayer

Already the bird are singing
Praise for the sunrise

They know the glory of the day
Will begin....they join together
On the water 
awaiting.....awakening

I crack the hatch and feel the
Chill of the crisp air, against the sweat , dew, of the heated cabin, 
, I cuddle around large covers and little girl from night before.....

Singing... .

Thoughts  berate  me, I expect they are leaving.....as they pass, reviewing what 
serves  no purpose ,  even in memory  -  times in abuse I have endured , I see 
them play out and I start with forgiveness, 
For being left was much worse
I forgive first myself,
I  let  churn  my stomach, 
I expand space
For time moves forward only

I grieve, and I cry for freedom, 
I open my heart to only love
for what  I am grateful for, 
for all of humanity....

Amen

-k

Friday, June 13, 2014

poem

Let's see, as I smile up at the clouds that blind me to anything not just in front 
of me! For they marshmellow between the buildings and hide the beyond.....

Nature how smart .....

-k

Poem prayer

There is a Buddha with a smile, the smile of unbearable compassion its called

Unbearable if there is you  that needs to bear it, washed thru Christ, thru the 
emptiness of realization, that there's  nothing but this moment,
No story has  happened or is even created that your mind isn't the narrator...

I am more than any thing I can know. I live and love when I am connected to my 
neighbor. My community, my children, my friends and compassion for Matthew...

I open my heart to myself and to those who have been visited by struggle for 
strength...

I pray for strength  in Christ Jesus. Lord, show me the way. Thy will be done, 
show me towards the narrow gate

Amen

Poem fri june 13

Rain washes all anew

Holding court along in the bed
To waking hearts pulling in many directions
-cant find this.  ( I need help)
-breakfast.       ( In hungry )
-its raining.      (Nameing what's   present)

At first I ponder, I'm not alone filled is my heart in the giving, facing 
outward , what can I offer in this world today, how can I love and let be. And 
touch another and raise up myself to the greatest good and light 
In this day
Where the 
Rain washes everything anew

I am !

Saturday, June 7, 2014

prayer after night on boat

Rocked to sleep in the cradle of the earth, floating on waters that carries time 
long before and after me 
Making me one with this moment which is here and now
And not in the tide that will come and not in the hurracaine that has 
passed.......

And how can I be more one with it, seems like I have to jump in, float on its 
awareness, find the reflection of the sunrise, the silence to remember ....and 
what if I look away, and I will a thousand and a thousand and a thousand times 
more, and still I return to the knowing......
And its why I'm not angry
And its where I find my emotion
And I love
So deeply
That I can cry........

Because I am happy
I just am !

Dear lord, grace me in everlasting waters, so I thirst only for u and am 
quenched in todays  sorrow, compassion, joy and comforted by love..... 

Amen !

prayer

Dear god,
Please Make me a force of good
All agendas I surrender to you
May I ask that I be carried in ur arms so that I might know the joy of full 
surrender
May I not be tempted to think about  meaningless things
And give them weight
And suffer. Thereby

Please  send ur spirit to me to give me youth and joyful spirit
Show me the happiness of full forgiveness
Who ever I do not forgive, dear lord, show me how
For I wish not to be bond here to the toil and pain and turmoil of this world I 
wish to know the angels, to sing and feel free,

Amen

Friday, June 6, 2014

ernest holmes

The time has come
The hour has struck
The power from within has come forth and is expressing through my word
I do not have to wait
Today is the time
Today I enter into all truths today I am completely healed
Today the truth has made me free
-ernest holmes

prose 2014

“Stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel 
without being frightened in any way by those who would oppose you.”
Philippians 1:27-28
 
Prayer
Lord of All, as Paul was writing to the Philippians to contend for the faith in 
one spirit, so should we be united to do the same.  Too often we are fighting 
among ourselves when we should be fighting the enemy.  Help us to stay focused 
on You and not on us and our agendas.

june 2014

My mouth opens and the song memories comes out

Could it be that it was all so simple then
Or has time rewritten every line...

Raining in my eyes and outside, I want to stand in it, be one with  it.

Sadness is the giving up, yet it floats towards the drain , sewer, when carried 
by words that need to be washed away.......

And when jesus saw the fig tree bearing no fruits (love) he shriveling it up 
quickley,

And I pray now for this suffering, to keep me in god and in love 


Be present today, be here now !!!!
Everything else, that's  tomorrow !

prose june 2014

There are so many stories, no one is better than the other,

In this moment, life is perfect, what will unfold ? I have no control, I know in 
my deepest heart I have done right, I have held to my beliefs I have served god 
, my children and husband, and am trying to be of service and open to be an 
instrument of healing....

I can't control how someone else feels when I give all I got, they tolerated  my 
activity, which was in love, and so darn capable, it should be honored not 
crucified, but that's a suffering I must bear,and someone its only a suffering 
if it takes me from the place of god in my heart...

Thy will be done....I will love more deeply through it all and be the pillar of 
strength for my children, be love everlasting.....